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Whelp, my vote is in...
and surprisingly the people working at the poles got quite the kick out of my t-shirt (oh ya of course I wore it)
my dad seemed very mad that I wore it to voting. Some people still believe in keeping up appearances I guess. I'm just to tired to do that any more. the way I think, if there's something that someone is going to judge me on than I'd rather they judge me, and run away from the start rather than getting to like someone only to realize that they can't handle certain aspects of my life.
It hurts more when you've known someone for a while and they disappear once they find one little thing out about you. I guess it feels more like the rest of you isn't good enough to equal that one "bad" part. And it's easy to say "well they're just shallow and can't see the good in things" when they don't mean much to you...
We all have our bad sides. We all have our things that we may not be ashamed of (and we shouldn't because it is part of us and our lives and lessons learned) BUT we're not exactly proud of either.
I was talking with a few girls at work saturday night while having a nic fit break and a lot of this came up. We were all admitting our down sides and "bad judgements" and this girl Saphire who I think is great and an extremely talented dancer heard me say something and started talking about how shocked she was... she didn't mean anything by it but it made me feel kinda vulnerable, which doesn't usually happen at the club. We're all there for our reasons and they're all a little extreme. We've all got plenty of skeletons that we talk about openly and no one really looks down on you for it... yes some are worse than others, but we're all human and fuck up. Usually we just make jokes about it but everyone can see through it. There's an unspoken understanding that joking is just a cover up... it's a very comforting thing. Knowing that this group of girls who barely know eachother can read eachother so easily. In any otherplace I'd be terrified of a group that large being able to see right through my defenses... but with the girls at Ten's you know everyone understands and is okay with it.
I'm kind of on a down kick today... and I think it was caused by visiting the new Hooters and being greatly disappointed. the girls were hot hot hot, don't get me wrong, but the atmosphere just wasn't there. Plus, I got a lot of shit dumped on me at hannaford last night. I'm going to have a bitch fest to my boss tonight!!!
P.S. I never realized how good Patience by G n' R is...
and surprisingly the people working at the poles got quite the kick out of my t-shirt (oh ya of course I wore it)
my dad seemed very mad that I wore it to voting. Some people still believe in keeping up appearances I guess. I'm just to tired to do that any more. the way I think, if there's something that someone is going to judge me on than I'd rather they judge me, and run away from the start rather than getting to like someone only to realize that they can't handle certain aspects of my life.
It hurts more when you've known someone for a while and they disappear once they find one little thing out about you. I guess it feels more like the rest of you isn't good enough to equal that one "bad" part. And it's easy to say "well they're just shallow and can't see the good in things" when they don't mean much to you...
We all have our bad sides. We all have our things that we may not be ashamed of (and we shouldn't because it is part of us and our lives and lessons learned) BUT we're not exactly proud of either.
I was talking with a few girls at work saturday night while having a nic fit break and a lot of this came up. We were all admitting our down sides and "bad judgements" and this girl Saphire who I think is great and an extremely talented dancer heard me say something and started talking about how shocked she was... she didn't mean anything by it but it made me feel kinda vulnerable, which doesn't usually happen at the club. We're all there for our reasons and they're all a little extreme. We've all got plenty of skeletons that we talk about openly and no one really looks down on you for it... yes some are worse than others, but we're all human and fuck up. Usually we just make jokes about it but everyone can see through it. There's an unspoken understanding that joking is just a cover up... it's a very comforting thing. Knowing that this group of girls who barely know eachother can read eachother so easily. In any otherplace I'd be terrified of a group that large being able to see right through my defenses... but with the girls at Ten's you know everyone understands and is okay with it.
I'm kind of on a down kick today... and I think it was caused by visiting the new Hooters and being greatly disappointed. the girls were hot hot hot, don't get me wrong, but the atmosphere just wasn't there. Plus, I got a lot of shit dumped on me at hannaford last night. I'm going to have a bitch fest to my boss tonight!!!
P.S. I never realized how good Patience by G n' R is...