HALT to the future....
Coming into my second semester of my junior year, I have started analyzing my future and have become strangely terrified of graduating. And I still have a year left! I feel as though I am not prepared to deal with the harsh realities of the working world. Everything that has kept me grounded in the past seems to be falling apart. I know what I want to do for my internship and it is no where close to home. I feel like if I leave home for the summer, I will lose ties that I need in my life right now. But at the same time, I can't base my decisions on something or someone because of my fear of losing them. I believe in fate and destiny and if things are meant to be then it shouldn't matter where I am.
I feel kind of empty and unsure of myself. I think I need to depend more on myself and less on other people. But that really is not like me. I like having to depend on someone, I know that sounds pathetic. But I like having that one person that I can tell anything to. I like having someone tell me that everything will be a ok. And of course there is the last phone call of the day, not to sound like a movie line (in which it is) but it is a dramatic line that has so much truth. That last phone call of the night makes me feel at ease and helps me sleep at night, like I have something to look foward to the next morning. lol. I probably shouldn't be listening to emo music right now...so Until next time. good night!
night night, sleep tight,and don't let the bed bugs bite:)
I feel kind of empty and unsure of myself. I think I need to depend more on myself and less on other people. But that really is not like me. I like having to depend on someone, I know that sounds pathetic. But I like having that one person that I can tell anything to. I like having someone tell me that everything will be a ok. And of course there is the last phone call of the day, not to sound like a movie line (in which it is) but it is a dramatic line that has so much truth. That last phone call of the night makes me feel at ease and helps me sleep at night, like I have something to look foward to the next morning. lol. I probably shouldn't be listening to emo music right now...so Until next time. good night!
night night, sleep tight,and don't let the bed bugs bite:)