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I don't understand why I've felt so different lately... It's like I've been floating around somewhere else while I'm here... I don't know how to explain it.
It feels like... reality is a dream almost? I don't know it's so hard to explain. It feels like I'm in a fog, and everything bores me. Everything that deals with... life! And that's so not okay!
Food is boring to me. I have literally no interest in food anymore other than when my hunger pains get bad enough to become annoying.
School is incredibly stifling.
My vision... everything is foggy. Like... I see things but it lacks a sense of realism. I know this makes zero sense to anyone. It's like it's fuzzy.
Headaches x_x
It's like I'm kind of just killing time... for something. But what!!! IT IS THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING EVER. Kind of like I'm bored of everything now and I'm kind of killing time until I'm where I want to be... but where is that.
So in order to fix stuff... I've decided to start a dream journal again to try and help me spark something??
Last night I had a dream that Hailey and stacey and I went to Sillas designs, and she bought a mattress and I bought a new towel. Then we left, and I felt really guilty about my money situation. So I wanted to go back to return it (got lost, homeless man helped us find it) and the lady was all "We're closed..." And then I was like okay well I'll come back tomorrow I guess........
Then the lady had a box of puppies that were super cute.
Omg the island.
It feels like... reality is a dream almost? I don't know it's so hard to explain. It feels like I'm in a fog, and everything bores me. Everything that deals with... life! And that's so not okay!
Food is boring to me. I have literally no interest in food anymore other than when my hunger pains get bad enough to become annoying.
School is incredibly stifling.
My vision... everything is foggy. Like... I see things but it lacks a sense of realism. I know this makes zero sense to anyone. It's like it's fuzzy.
Headaches x_x
It's like I'm kind of just killing time... for something. But what!!! IT IS THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING EVER. Kind of like I'm bored of everything now and I'm kind of killing time until I'm where I want to be... but where is that.
So in order to fix stuff... I've decided to start a dream journal again to try and help me spark something??
Last night I had a dream that Hailey and stacey and I went to Sillas designs, and she bought a mattress and I bought a new towel. Then we left, and I felt really guilty about my money situation. So I wanted to go back to return it (got lost, homeless man helped us find it) and the lady was all "We're closed..." And then I was like okay well I'll come back tomorrow I guess........
Then the lady had a box of puppies that were super cute.
Omg the island.