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[kitkatastrophy]

I hate my life. No one has been able to tell that ive been so depressed lately, except maybe joe, cuz hes like the only person who really cares about me. I mean, I love this kid so much and I cant even have him the way I want him. I guess I should be glad me and him are dating. But I think thats only cuz he got jealous of me and chris. But then again, he has no reason to be jealous anymore. Im not even gonna bother cleaning my room cuz only a few ppl are going to see it.
why haven't i killed myswlf yet?