this hasn't even felt like a real "weekend"...
~friday we had that pageant "get together" thing. it was a lot better than i thought it would be. it's weird not to be doing the pageant this year, so its kinda hard for me to get 'pumped up' for it or w/e. i mean it'll be fun, but i dont have that anxious feeling, bc i already know that there is nothing for me to get.
~yesterday i worked. and then gaddis, brooks, and i drove down to columbus to watch our girls compete for state. they got 2nd...disappointing, i really think our girls deserved it this year. after driving a total of over 5 hours, i was beat when i came back here.
thoughts that ran through my brain today:
~my church. i like the sunday school part, a lot. but i dont like how in the service, people ive been friends with for years, are just not the same anymore. and granted, im not either. it's just...i dunno im ranting. its just everyone has changed so much, not for the bad at all. i just dont feel like i have anything in common with them. so now i sit by myself. and i feel better doing that. wow, ive changed too.
~this senior year has by far been the best and most fun of all high school. and not once has it involved alcohol. im proud of myself, ive come far.
*Trying hard to reach out* But when I'd try to speak out* Felt like no one could hear me* Wanted to belong here* But something felt so wrong here* So I pray* I could breakaway*
~yesterday i worked. and then gaddis, brooks, and i drove down to columbus to watch our girls compete for state. they got 2nd...disappointing, i really think our girls deserved it this year. after driving a total of over 5 hours, i was beat when i came back here.
thoughts that ran through my brain today:
~my church. i like the sunday school part, a lot. but i dont like how in the service, people ive been friends with for years, are just not the same anymore. and granted, im not either. it's just...i dunno im ranting. its just everyone has changed so much, not for the bad at all. i just dont feel like i have anything in common with them. so now i sit by myself. and i feel better doing that. wow, ive changed too.
~this senior year has by far been the best and most fun of all high school. and not once has it involved alcohol. im proud of myself, ive come far.
*Trying hard to reach out* But when I'd try to speak out* Felt like no one could hear me* Wanted to belong here* But something felt so wrong here* So I pray* I could breakaway*