Moving Forward
I'm currently kicking it at Benny's place in his bedroom while he deep cleans his apartment. It's nice to have a boyfriend. A legitimate person. One who actually cares about me. I'm still nervous though. This is all so new and seems to be moving quickly. I'm just going to stay on this wave for as long as I can and hope it never breaks.
My favorite part is how he accepts me for who I am. He hasn't asked me to change anything about myself and I honestly think he wouldn't like it if I sought to do so just to appease him in some way. Not having that kind of pressure is refreshing. He makes me more confident in who I am.
I have officially been enrolled and am ready to start school September 5th. I am doing a monthly payment plan for the leftover $4,000 that I owe, which has me all nervous. I'm going to have to work as much as I can and get the best grades possible. Plus spending time with Benny too. I already feel the stress and lack of sleep. Here it comes!
Other things on my mind... I'm thinking about having to move out from my aunt and uncle's place. I feel more pressure with it because Skylar is staying there too. It just feels like they have to take care of us and we aren't even their children. 2 full grown women. I feel like I should be on my own by now. But even on my old salary at Pasta Pomodoro, working 55 hour weeks, I still wasn't making enough to live on my own. I'd have to live in a shady part of town or commute into the city.
My favorite part is how he accepts me for who I am. He hasn't asked me to change anything about myself and I honestly think he wouldn't like it if I sought to do so just to appease him in some way. Not having that kind of pressure is refreshing. He makes me more confident in who I am.
I have officially been enrolled and am ready to start school September 5th. I am doing a monthly payment plan for the leftover $4,000 that I owe, which has me all nervous. I'm going to have to work as much as I can and get the best grades possible. Plus spending time with Benny too. I already feel the stress and lack of sleep. Here it comes!
Other things on my mind... I'm thinking about having to move out from my aunt and uncle's place. I feel more pressure with it because Skylar is staying there too. It just feels like they have to take care of us and we aren't even their children. 2 full grown women. I feel like I should be on my own by now. But even on my old salary at Pasta Pomodoro, working 55 hour weeks, I still wasn't making enough to live on my own. I'd have to live in a shady part of town or commute into the city.