Ramblings...2 year mark in Texas
Its officially two years since I started the move down here to Texas in about 15 hours. I think about that and I just CAN'T believe its been that long. Life has been going by so fast, and I know its not going to slow down any time soon. I know that I miss all my friends and family from back in PA, but I am also REALLY happy down here in Texas. It will be two years that I have been with Todd, and things are great between us. We are actively looking to get a house now, even though he said that a year ago, I put things into motion about a week ago. Our room mates now are going to move with us, so that will be exciting. I am giving us till about April or Mayish to be moved into some place. Hopefully by then, everything financially will be in place and we will be ready to start that new chapter in our lives. Speaking of which, I am still not fully divorced. Last time I posted, I said I was in the final steps. Well I found out that we were only on stage one of like three stages we have to go through. So now we are on Stage Two(yes, its taking that long). My ex is now a father and is raising his current girlfriends kids on top of that. I am happy for him, but I just really wish he wasnt a procrastinator with this divorce. He is sending me what I need in the mail hopefully in the next day or so, and then I can sign them and send them back. Once that goes to the court, Step three should be in motion, which that is for the judge to rule that we are officially divorced. I am pretty sure of that step lol. So hopefully, by the time I move into a house, I will be official divorced and back to my maiden name. YAY FOR EASY SPELLING! lol. On top of ALL of this, I want to start taking classes and I am debating on what exactly I want to do. There are a lot of associate degrees I can get and be happy, so I am thinking that will be my cheapest route. I was thinking Criminal Justice, but Im not 100% on it yet. Heck, I am not even 50% on it yet lol. IT all depends on what I think will make the best career choice and what will make me happy for a VERY long time. I am happy in my job situation right now(which says a lot considering usually at this point, I want to kill someone I work with and quit lol). But the only thing is, I will never get a pay raise and I will never get benefits or vacation time. So if I stay doing what I am doing right now, I will never make more than what I am making. And that means that I will be struggling for the rest of my life and that doesnt make a happy Amber lol. So school and a new job is up in the air and we will see where the rest of my life and fate take me.
Spiritually, I have been trying to understand myself better. I am getting more in touch with my tarot deck and I am now also meeting up with a womens group once a month. Both these have helped me understand myself a little better and become more in touch with my spiritual side. Eventually, I should be comfortable with everything around me and hopefully have a better hold over all my emotions and sicknesses because of it. Anyway, enough rambling. Its late, or early, however you want to look at it, and I need to go get food and go to bed. Night all.
Spiritually, I have been trying to understand myself better. I am getting more in touch with my tarot deck and I am now also meeting up with a womens group once a month. Both these have helped me understand myself a little better and become more in touch with my spiritual side. Eventually, I should be comfortable with everything around me and hopefully have a better hold over all my emotions and sicknesses because of it. Anyway, enough rambling. Its late, or early, however you want to look at it, and I need to go get food and go to bed. Night all.