Douchebag McShmuck

Feb 04, 2009 00:04

"I've got to get this out.

People don't make romantic plans one night and dump the following morning. Someone must have said something, something must have happened. As they say in cinematic semantics, "אירוע מחולל".

Please don't answer with broad philosophical statements like "it doesn't help to dwell on the past" and the like. I just need an answer. People don't do this."

~~~

"ok so:
1. no one said anything
2. it was more inner conversation with myself
3. i think the relationsip was built more on lust then love, which isnt good
4. i think i am not ready for a mature and real relationship.
5. i didn't mean to get into a relationship it kinda just happened out of the blue out of a sudden i wasn't ready for it didn't expect it, and don't think i'm ready for it

much more to be said"

~~~

"I'm warning you now that this will bite. I can get sarcastic and nasty when I'm hurt. It's a defense mechanism. I'll apologize later.

I didn't ask why. I asked how you suddenly made a shift like that in just a few short hours.

When you say that you think it was more lust than love, you probably don't realize it, but you're putting me down. I put a lot into this. I felt like we actually had something. Are you saying that to you (other than a friend, of course) I was nothing more than something to fuck?

If you didn't mean to get into a relationship, you should have just stopped it after that first night. "Yeah, it was fun. No, I don't think we'll continue. It was a one-time thing that popped up." Sure, it would have been a bit awkward, but we'd have gotten past that.
I asked you the following day if you regretted it. You said "never."

You DO NOT drag a girl around for two months if you realize you're not really ready and interested in something serious. That is misleading and gross. Looking back, I'm sort of really upset that I slept with you. I feel like suddenly all of that wasn't real. I feel like I opened up a part of myself, gave you a gift, and you threw it back in my face.

I've been telling myself for the past few weeks that my feelings of being used are wrong. It just didn't work out. Now I'm not so sure. You're not ready for a mature relationship? No shit, Sherlock.

There's much more to be said. So say it."

~~~

Bastard can't even use proper punctuation. To be continued.

relationships, aaron, love, sexuality

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