the return of progress? putting theory into practice
It has been a while since I've updated. As usual, it is not necessarily due to a lack of time or even a lack of something to say; I've simply been avoiding this place. From time to time, I get in these weird, cyclical funks. The past two weeks or so have been evidence of that.
It is now nearing the end of May. As of today, my birthday is in less than two weeks. I will be turning 25. From what I understand, this is undoubtedly a milestone of some sorts; however, as someone has repeatedly pointed out to me, "life is not a matter of milestones, but a matter of moments." It is then, with this philosophy in mind, that I have set forth with this pedantic, meandering prose to "capture the moment" or so.
I have been in a bad funk for about 2 weeks. I'm really not sure what caused it or what led up to it. I suppose it was mostly the inevitable slowing down from my mania, coupled with an increase in medication (which helped cause the "slowing down" effect). Now that I am close to re-achieving an equilibrium, I can set forth in earnest to compile a list of achievable goals for the months of June and July.
My year-long summer is nearing an end. From late May of 2010, until August 2011, will be the longest stretch I have gone without school. Since November, I have also been unemployed. Thus, November 2010 to August of this year will have been the longest I have been without work or school. It has been a maddening experience, to say the least.
As usual, I can't help but sit and wonder if I've squandered the moment, or if I managed to capitalize on it. Undoubtedly, the last month or so has been one of great progress; I am enjoying my longest period of sobriety at this moment. I am still, more or less, working within the framework of thought I established in late December of last year and early January of this year.
I suppose my overall concern, then, at this point, is how to create momentum from now until the school year, and how to best go about enjoying the moment. I have plenty of books I would like to read, movies I'd like to watch, people and places I'd like to see.
I guess my point is, I once again feel as if I'm emerging from a fog. Once again, I am setting forth on a journey of some sort. With that, I bid you farewell, and hopefully I'll be back soon to write about my progress. Until then, cheers.
It is now nearing the end of May. As of today, my birthday is in less than two weeks. I will be turning 25. From what I understand, this is undoubtedly a milestone of some sorts; however, as someone has repeatedly pointed out to me, "life is not a matter of milestones, but a matter of moments." It is then, with this philosophy in mind, that I have set forth with this pedantic, meandering prose to "capture the moment" or so.
I have been in a bad funk for about 2 weeks. I'm really not sure what caused it or what led up to it. I suppose it was mostly the inevitable slowing down from my mania, coupled with an increase in medication (which helped cause the "slowing down" effect). Now that I am close to re-achieving an equilibrium, I can set forth in earnest to compile a list of achievable goals for the months of June and July.
My year-long summer is nearing an end. From late May of 2010, until August 2011, will be the longest stretch I have gone without school. Since November, I have also been unemployed. Thus, November 2010 to August of this year will have been the longest I have been without work or school. It has been a maddening experience, to say the least.
As usual, I can't help but sit and wonder if I've squandered the moment, or if I managed to capitalize on it. Undoubtedly, the last month or so has been one of great progress; I am enjoying my longest period of sobriety at this moment. I am still, more or less, working within the framework of thought I established in late December of last year and early January of this year.
I suppose my overall concern, then, at this point, is how to create momentum from now until the school year, and how to best go about enjoying the moment. I have plenty of books I would like to read, movies I'd like to watch, people and places I'd like to see.
I guess my point is, I once again feel as if I'm emerging from a fog. Once again, I am setting forth on a journey of some sort. With that, I bid you farewell, and hopefully I'll be back soon to write about my progress. Until then, cheers.