obsessing with the past is unhealthy

[kite_head]

I can't help it. I'm very lonely right now. Most people get their lusty feelings in the spring, you know, when things are in bloom. Dalton Ames I, unfortunately, tend to get mine all year long. Right now, I'm dealing with a particularly bad bout of regret over both Jessica's.

But fresh lilaced moorland fields
Cannot hide the stolid stench of death
Fresh lilaced moorland fields
Cannot hide the stolid stench of death

I miss being in a relationship, having someone to relate to. Dalton Ames My life feels so stagnant and vapid and hollow. It is consuming me alive and I'm moving myself to tears with each word I type. I have to cry; for I have wronged so many.

You might sleep but you will never dream!

I'm so torn apart right now. Have I ever done the right thing? Why am I such a terrible person? I know I've done wrong. I know that, deep in the cell of my heart, I'm a highly flawed person.

There is blood on my hands. It is mine, mixed with the blood of others.

I don't know what to say anymore. Dalton Ames...