band on the run; loneliness; sometimes
sometimes, one does feel like they don't have a partner. and it drives them bloody bonkers!
sometimes, you just want someone to hug, and hold, and kiss; someone to wake up to, to get into petty fights with, to experience the beauty --and the pain -- of life with. someone more than a friend.
I have plenty of amazing friends and acquaintances, actually.
But, sometimes, like today, I just miss having someone to talk to. I woke up early and it would have been nice to have someone to cook breakfast for....or having a morning fuck with. I dunno. SIGH. sometimes, I do admit, I get loneliness and horny-ness confused. I don't think this is one of those times, however.
Living in a town like Modesto, it can be so hard to find someone. I've tried craigslist, but that is mostly sex perverts, web cam girls, and ugly psychos. I guess I may fall into the last category, being grotesquely overweight and all. I dunno. I'm probably being too hard on myself. At least I'm smart, educated, and have a personality. Minor consolations.
And...even if I did find someone, I wouldn't have any money to dote on them. So, I'd most likely be a mooch on my partner.
Also: getting so lonely and desperate sometimes I wouldn't mind it if it were a boy. True, that would be hard and somewhat unconventional, but I would enjoy it.
I just want someone to talk to, damnit and everyone is busy. I don't have anything in particular to say.
I'm not sad or depressed, surprisingly.
I guess I'm just being whiny. Sorry.
sometimes, you just want someone to hug, and hold, and kiss; someone to wake up to, to get into petty fights with, to experience the beauty --and the pain -- of life with. someone more than a friend.
I have plenty of amazing friends and acquaintances, actually.
But, sometimes, like today, I just miss having someone to talk to. I woke up early and it would have been nice to have someone to cook breakfast for....or having a morning fuck with. I dunno. SIGH. sometimes, I do admit, I get loneliness and horny-ness confused. I don't think this is one of those times, however.
Living in a town like Modesto, it can be so hard to find someone. I've tried craigslist, but that is mostly sex perverts, web cam girls, and ugly psychos. I guess I may fall into the last category, being grotesquely overweight and all. I dunno. I'm probably being too hard on myself. At least I'm smart, educated, and have a personality. Minor consolations.
And...even if I did find someone, I wouldn't have any money to dote on them. So, I'd most likely be a mooch on my partner.
Also: getting so lonely and desperate sometimes I wouldn't mind it if it were a boy. True, that would be hard and somewhat unconventional, but I would enjoy it.
I just want someone to talk to, damnit and everyone is busy. I don't have anything in particular to say.
I'm not sad or depressed, surprisingly.
I guess I'm just being whiny. Sorry.