i cried for the first time in a year yesterday

[kitcat319]

i feel like, after this past week or so, that i should be able to write something profound. so much has happened and i've learned so much, but the words aren't coming.
maybe it's a good thing, but i really wish i could come up with words to describe how i'm feeling.
maybe i don't really understand everything enough to verbalize it yet.
maybe later i'll be able to make sense of this mess....