Biological Clock goes tick-tock-tick-tock...
So... what I've been trying to hold at bay for years has finally grabbed hold of me and made me seriously consider my future... I want to have a baby.
It can't happen right now, my life is too disorganised. But within the next two years, possibly even by this time next year, I could be pregnant. I realise it'll be hard as a single mom, as I honestly don't see myself in a relationship, but I need to do this. I need to get everything moving forward, I need to create a happy, positive space to live in before I bring a child into it.
I spoke to my parents today about it... Mom was cool, as she always is, but it was Dad I was concerned about... but I shouldn't have been. Whiles he still doesn't want me to move out as our living arrangement is good at the moment, he says he will support me as much as I need, emotionally. He gave me some much-needed advice about how to use my tallents to generate a higher income, and even helped me narrow down my time frame from 2-3 years to maybe becoming pregnant in the next 12 months.
I desperately long for this, and I'm willing to do anything to make it possible.
In other news, work is great. :) I'm having a total ball. The kids are awesome, if slightly undisciplined, but they learn quick and are very bright. I've grown really close to them, and to my coworkers. It's also great having my friend, Sandy, there.
I'm actually really happy. For the first time in a long time.
It can't happen right now, my life is too disorganised. But within the next two years, possibly even by this time next year, I could be pregnant. I realise it'll be hard as a single mom, as I honestly don't see myself in a relationship, but I need to do this. I need to get everything moving forward, I need to create a happy, positive space to live in before I bring a child into it.
I spoke to my parents today about it... Mom was cool, as she always is, but it was Dad I was concerned about... but I shouldn't have been. Whiles he still doesn't want me to move out as our living arrangement is good at the moment, he says he will support me as much as I need, emotionally. He gave me some much-needed advice about how to use my tallents to generate a higher income, and even helped me narrow down my time frame from 2-3 years to maybe becoming pregnant in the next 12 months.
I desperately long for this, and I'm willing to do anything to make it possible.
In other news, work is great. :) I'm having a total ball. The kids are awesome, if slightly undisciplined, but they learn quick and are very bright. I've grown really close to them, and to my coworkers. It's also great having my friend, Sandy, there.
I'm actually really happy. For the first time in a long time.