Handball Weekend
First tournament of the year. There's still this black/gold relationship even though the captains thought the teams were equal. I was pretty upset, visably, in fact, about the outcome of the team. Yes, I know I'm going to have a bitch moment saying this, but: I wanted to win. My team (gold) came in last, we didn't even win a single game. What upsets me the most is that I've been on the team for over a year, and still haven't won a game of handball. However, the new girls on black won their first game having played 2 months. I put so much of my heart for this team and I never see results. Sure, I've gotten tons better, but what's improvement worth if you never have something tangible to mark it with? You'll always feel like you're not good enough, you'll feel this jealously, bitterness, anger, and injustice.
I said that I didn't care anymore, but that's not true. I care about this team more than a good number of things in my life. This team is my family here and I can't ever change how much that means to me.
I said that I didn't care anymore, but that's not true. I care about this team more than a good number of things in my life. This team is my family here and I can't ever change how much that means to me.