chillen at jayces and needed to share
so im sitting here talking to lisa and i get asked why i never update my journals anymore.. i guess its just because ive had a lot on my mind with everything and everyone thats been in my life this past week or two.. i guess the only way for you to understand what im talking about.. is to give youa little bit of information about it...
josh got mad at me because i ignored him on his last day of torrance.. and he yeah.. i cried! im gonna miss you.. you fuck!
grandpa went into his second surgery where they determined that the caner was larger than they thought. and well.. took almost all of his stomach (some of his liver and some of his pancreas...where the cancer had attached itself to those organs) but like apparently he keeps talking about how he wants to go to my highschool graduation really badly.... before anything happens.. which sucks because i kinda took away the graduation he wanted for me.. but it was really nice finding out.. that talkin about going to my graduation was one of the only things that had seemed to perk him up 2 days in a row... made me realize i was still... his little girl... i laid on the floor with my dad about to cry because he was talking to me and made me reazlie.. that i wasnt just another one of the grandkids... but i was still grandpas little girl..
i picked up josh from riverside... not going to completely go into details.. but lets just say... my family was there.. and thats not where my family wanted to be... so we brought him back home.... to stay with jayce and all the rest of us.
rachelle no matter whats been said.. you kno you and me are a mother effing pair.. i will find a way to where i can still be with u.. cuz babe you complete me.... you own half of my vag! lol... ::jayce::"you were gonna take her with you" see told you! he knows it.... and so should u.. cuz i always will
i drove josh out to san diego so he could go to boot camp.. the drive wasnt bad.. and the goodbye really wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. but that was on monday.. and its now friday... still no word.... gettin kinda lonly without one of my best friends around.....
rancho started out pretty well... met a lot of new people and seem to blend in a lot better than i used to... jessika and BUDDIE make rancho a efffing blast.. thank you you two! i lubs yahs!
mom had a medical concern that i dont really wanna talk about.. but luckily everything turned out ok.
jayce and i got in a little bit of a tiffy... but sooo far most things have been worked out... so we should be happie bout that.... cuz theres lots of positiveness.. especially in those new "dress" shirts.. with his hair done.. whoa! o... and...EYELINER!
grandad told me that he LOVES ME... on the phone when i called... ive heard him say the words "i love you" maybe like 5 or 6 times total... and now four of them have been to me... and my moms even noticed that.. the cool part is... i know there were at least 5 people in the room that could of heard him when he said it... "i love you too"
dad got snapped at for being a weirdo and asked me if i did something.. that he had told someone else that he was going to do.. i snapped because ... y would i do it... if he said he would? lol.. i did call and apologize thou...
phone guy
i havnt really been around recently.. but ill try to more... im currently going to a phsychiatrist (spelling?) so that i can have someone to talk to about things that are going on in my head... this should make for a good conversation with her... which i guess ill let a couple of you in on.. otherwise goodnight everyone.. i miss a lot of you more than you would think! <3
josh got mad at me because i ignored him on his last day of torrance.. and he yeah.. i cried! im gonna miss you.. you fuck!
grandpa went into his second surgery where they determined that the caner was larger than they thought. and well.. took almost all of his stomach (some of his liver and some of his pancreas...where the cancer had attached itself to those organs) but like apparently he keeps talking about how he wants to go to my highschool graduation really badly.... before anything happens.. which sucks because i kinda took away the graduation he wanted for me.. but it was really nice finding out.. that talkin about going to my graduation was one of the only things that had seemed to perk him up 2 days in a row... made me realize i was still... his little girl... i laid on the floor with my dad about to cry because he was talking to me and made me reazlie.. that i wasnt just another one of the grandkids... but i was still grandpas little girl..
i picked up josh from riverside... not going to completely go into details.. but lets just say... my family was there.. and thats not where my family wanted to be... so we brought him back home.... to stay with jayce and all the rest of us.
rachelle no matter whats been said.. you kno you and me are a mother effing pair.. i will find a way to where i can still be with u.. cuz babe you complete me.... you own half of my vag! lol... ::jayce::"you were gonna take her with you" see told you! he knows it.... and so should u.. cuz i always will
i drove josh out to san diego so he could go to boot camp.. the drive wasnt bad.. and the goodbye really wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. but that was on monday.. and its now friday... still no word.... gettin kinda lonly without one of my best friends around.....
rancho started out pretty well... met a lot of new people and seem to blend in a lot better than i used to... jessika and BUDDIE make rancho a efffing blast.. thank you you two! i lubs yahs!
mom had a medical concern that i dont really wanna talk about.. but luckily everything turned out ok.
jayce and i got in a little bit of a tiffy... but sooo far most things have been worked out... so we should be happie bout that.... cuz theres lots of positiveness.. especially in those new "dress" shirts.. with his hair done.. whoa! o... and...EYELINER!
grandad told me that he LOVES ME... on the phone when i called... ive heard him say the words "i love you" maybe like 5 or 6 times total... and now four of them have been to me... and my moms even noticed that.. the cool part is... i know there were at least 5 people in the room that could of heard him when he said it... "i love you too"
dad got snapped at for being a weirdo and asked me if i did something.. that he had told someone else that he was going to do.. i snapped because ... y would i do it... if he said he would? lol.. i did call and apologize thou...
phone guy
i havnt really been around recently.. but ill try to more... im currently going to a phsychiatrist (spelling?) so that i can have someone to talk to about things that are going on in my head... this should make for a good conversation with her... which i guess ill let a couple of you in on.. otherwise goodnight everyone.. i miss a lot of you more than you would think! <3