I love you so much but all I'm going to do is hurt you
I miss my friends. I miss being crazy. I miss my mom. I miss being happy. I miss having a family. I miss having a boyfriend that actually lived in town. I miss not having a license. I miss having no responsibility. I miss not having to think about my actions before I went through with them. I miss having a smaller nose than I do now (seriously, wtf. Does it grow or something? Am I Pinocchio?). I miss being able to take care of mysef. I miss being okay on my own. I miss worrying about if I could finish my Spelling 5x's each before having to go to bed at 8:30. I miss Nintendo64. I miss the simple life.
I miss all these things and yet I still don't know what I want. I want to go, I want to stay. I want this, 5 minutes later I want that. I want to work hard, I want to fail. I want what I've always wanted and finally have, yet at times I dismiss it like it's nothing.I just don't know. I feel like it's all my fault for not doing the things I should've been doing all this time.
I'm gay. But at least I got my bi-weekly dose of drunk in...bud light is my friend. I don't care about what any of you say...beer is therapeutic. Kthx.
I miss all these things and yet I still don't know what I want. I want to go, I want to stay. I want this, 5 minutes later I want that. I want to work hard, I want to fail. I want what I've always wanted and finally have, yet at times I dismiss it like it's nothing.I just don't know. I feel like it's all my fault for not doing the things I should've been doing all this time.
I'm gay. But at least I got my bi-weekly dose of drunk in...bud light is my friend. I don't care about what any of you say...beer is therapeutic. Kthx.