Happy 2005 Everyone.
I don't update much anymore, but I have good excuses.
1. I've been at my mom's for the last week and her computer done crashed to hell. We've been waiting for a tech to come out and fix it like all week.
2. I've been too busy chasing my stupid boyfriend around town trying to spend time with him.
3. My life is boring.
Anyways, New Year's was terrible. Well, not the whole day/night, just the party st Charlie's after work. Actually, the whole day sucked too but getting super dressed up and working with Clare was fun. I'll post some pictures of us if Photobucket isn't being shit. I've spent the last week and a half fighting and making up with Kris and I'm pretty sure I want to kill myself. This is a horrible excuse for a relationship. We're both too stupid to be together. I'm stupid when I'm drunk and he's stupid when he's sober. I've come to the realization that the reason I don't feel like I have a boyfriend is because my boyfriend doesn't treat me like I'm his girlfriend. He's done countless shitty things to me the last 10 days and no ring of any sort can or will make up for it. However I do love the ring, it's nice to go around telling/showing everyone the ring my boyfriend got me but it's just a shame that I rarely feel like it means anything (so no, I won't be having a Clare/Tara moment and posting a picture of my ring). I'm trying really hard to make things work but I'm just too hurt and too bitter to really give it some effort. Here's how it goes: Kris is a total dickhead to me, I get upset, we don't talk for a while, I give in and be nice to him again, he shits on me again, calls me a few hours later being nice, I'm too disheartened to try to make things work when he feels like acting like a boyfriend, we get nowhere.
I don't mean to trash him but this is how I feel and this is my livejournal.
I got a tad drunk twice this past week. Just what I needed. Thanks girls =)
So, other than wanting to break up with my boyfriend like everynight for the last week my life has been pretty uneventful. Christmas was nice, but empty. As soon as I got back to my mom's around 9:30 Christmas Day night to have Christmas with her she started bitching at my brothers, my sister, and I for my dad going on vacation with his girlfriend??? I was confused. Either way, we ended up getting in a fight so I left and went to Charlie's. Just another family holiday ruined, I'll add it to the list of every other holiday my family has ever experienced.
I can't wait to go to college. I need to start fresh, single, and with no regrets. I need to apply for housing. Actually, I still have to accept my acceptance to FSU. Do I really want to go there? Yeah, okay I do. To close, my break has over-all been relaxing. It was amazing to have no school work to stress/want to commit suicide over. The only stress in my life was emotional stress. But hey, what else is new?
So I say all these things but will I ever go through with them? No, of course not. I plan for what I know I should do but never will. Cool. Happy 2005 Everyone. I graduate in 5 months and 18 days. Amen.
1. I've been at my mom's for the last week and her computer done crashed to hell. We've been waiting for a tech to come out and fix it like all week.
2. I've been too busy chasing my stupid boyfriend around town trying to spend time with him.
3. My life is boring.
Anyways, New Year's was terrible. Well, not the whole day/night, just the party st Charlie's after work. Actually, the whole day sucked too but getting super dressed up and working with Clare was fun. I'll post some pictures of us if Photobucket isn't being shit. I've spent the last week and a half fighting and making up with Kris and I'm pretty sure I want to kill myself. This is a horrible excuse for a relationship. We're both too stupid to be together. I'm stupid when I'm drunk and he's stupid when he's sober. I've come to the realization that the reason I don't feel like I have a boyfriend is because my boyfriend doesn't treat me like I'm his girlfriend. He's done countless shitty things to me the last 10 days and no ring of any sort can or will make up for it. However I do love the ring, it's nice to go around telling/showing everyone the ring my boyfriend got me but it's just a shame that I rarely feel like it means anything (so no, I won't be having a Clare/Tara moment and posting a picture of my ring). I'm trying really hard to make things work but I'm just too hurt and too bitter to really give it some effort. Here's how it goes: Kris is a total dickhead to me, I get upset, we don't talk for a while, I give in and be nice to him again, he shits on me again, calls me a few hours later being nice, I'm too disheartened to try to make things work when he feels like acting like a boyfriend, we get nowhere.
I don't mean to trash him but this is how I feel and this is my livejournal.
I got a tad drunk twice this past week. Just what I needed. Thanks girls =)
So, other than wanting to break up with my boyfriend like everynight for the last week my life has been pretty uneventful. Christmas was nice, but empty. As soon as I got back to my mom's around 9:30 Christmas Day night to have Christmas with her she started bitching at my brothers, my sister, and I for my dad going on vacation with his girlfriend??? I was confused. Either way, we ended up getting in a fight so I left and went to Charlie's. Just another family holiday ruined, I'll add it to the list of every other holiday my family has ever experienced.
I can't wait to go to college. I need to start fresh, single, and with no regrets. I need to apply for housing. Actually, I still have to accept my acceptance to FSU. Do I really want to go there? Yeah, okay I do. To close, my break has over-all been relaxing. It was amazing to have no school work to stress/want to commit suicide over. The only stress in my life was emotional stress. But hey, what else is new?
So I say all these things but will I ever go through with them? No, of course not. I plan for what I know I should do but never will. Cool. Happy 2005 Everyone. I graduate in 5 months and 18 days. Amen.