I'm still waiting for it to feel like Christmas.
I'll update about this past week with more detail, but for now I just wanted to say Merry Christmas to everyone and I hope everyone is safe and as happy as their situations allow them to be. Kris came over lastnight and we exchanged gifts...I got him Half Life 2 and he got me a white gold ruby & diamond ring. I was surprised to say the least. Actually I was/kind of still am in shock. I was in no way expecting a ring. I knew I was getting jewelry but I thought maybe a necklace or something less serious. I went over to his dad's house today and met his dad and step mom and sisters. I actually feel like I have a boyfriend. It's so weird. Anyways, I'm happy. =)
We had our Christmas Eve dinner at 11:02 at night. Hahha. While my dad was at church with his girlfriend, friend, whatever, my brothers and I had to put the pork roast on the rotisseree (I know I mis-spelled it, I don't care) but my one brother who was supposed to be watching it fell asleep and I was watching Old School. My other brother Chris was engulfed by the Sims 2. So the pork roast was charred to say the least, my brother Doug fell asleep around 10, my sister went to bed, and my dad got home at 10:51. So my dad, my brother Chris, and myself had 1/4 of the pork roast that was left and some salad. My family is so weird. *sigh* we try to make things work, maybe someday.
It doesn't feel like Christmas at all, but I feel very relaxed. Feeling relaxed is more important to me than being excited over presents right now. I don't even want anything for Christmas. I just want my family to be calm and my car fixed. Oh, and I want it detailed (cleaned) too. I think I'm getting some kind of iPod dealy-doo-bop thing for Christmas. I don't really know much about them/know how to use one/need one. I'd rather my dad take that couple hundred dollars or whatever and put it with the insurance money we got for my car. Ehh, whatever. Last year I got a palm pilot, the year before that it was a digital camera, I'm just destined for some technological gift for Christmas this year. Oh, I COULD REALLY USE MY OWN COMPUTER. My dad bought my mom a super leet laptop for Christmas, even though they're getting divorced. A laptop is the one thing my mom's been begging/whining for even though she can hardly check her email. My dad got it for her anyways. My parents are so weird.
I keep thinking about Jen's family and how their Christmas is probably sucking. It's been a week since the car accident....just a week and yet it feels so long ago. I never made it to the funeral. Someone told me it was at 10:30 but it was at 10, so by the time I went to go pick up my friend Amanda and go to the funeral it was over. But Alex made a good point, he said, "I bet it means more to her that you were such good friends in marching band your freshman year than if you went to her funeral after she died.". Good point. HEY ALEX! Hope you're having a kick ass time in England! You too June. =) <3 <3 <3 Anyways, it's just hard to get mad at my siblings when they're being stupid or mad at my dad when he ignores me when I try to talk to him about my boyfriend or my mom when she forgets something I just told her because I keep thinking about how one day one them or myself won't be here to feel that way. I guess when you get down to it, Jen has taught me patience in a way. Funny how things work out.
Gosh, I am so rambling, I need to shut up. Just one more thing, I can't stop listening to My Chemical Romance. Like, I really can't stop. I have to make myself turn on the radio just to see what's on inbetween listening to the cd for the 3rd and 4th times in a row. It's crazy. That's about it.
Merry Christmas everyone, I hope everyone's happy and I love you guys. =)