Hello Again
Yes the time stamp on here is right it is EARLY am! I can not sleep. Today I have my eye surg. Now I am not one to really be chicken, But I have no clue what to expect. I am not realy nervous of dieing or anything just not knowing what to expect and what they are going to do. This is an awake surg. They are going to be making my left eye straight for the 1st time in my whole life my face wont be all messed up. That is very exciting to think about. This is one of the steps that I have to take to change my life. I have done lots of soul serching, lots of thinking about my life and where I want to be in a few years. What I am going to do with my life facing the fact that I will probably be single the rest of my life. I am dealing with that. I just know that I have changed the inside of me ( far from done! but I have changed)and now I need to startr working on the outside. I have my gastric bypass schedualed for Dec. 13th right around the new year. I am hoping that 2006 brings new life and and new insight to me. I am growing up even if I do not want to. well I am going to go clean or sotmhing and get my mind off of what is to come today.