actually happy just might be the right word after all
today was a terribly sad day. it started in the a.m. with all the UT folks leaving. i didn't get to see all of them off, only bryan. i helped him pack up and bring stuff down before going to work. i went to lunch with neff and him and then said my goodbyes to bryan and went to work in tears.
work was pretty slow, especially at first, and i was very tired. at 5, kim surprised me by getting her babysitter to bring the girls by the store to say bye to me. apparently lauren, the 4-year-old who i am in love with, has been asking about me in conversations that go something like:
lauren: where is miss-shana? (because she thinks thats my name, since she calls adults miss and then their names)
kim: she's leaving for school soon.
lauren: where is she going?
kim: far far away.
lauren: doesn't she like working at the store anymore?
kim: yes, but she has to go to school.
lauren: do i get to see her?
kim: not for a long time, till christmas or something.
lauren: does she have to go to school?
james: see, my question exactly!
anyway, the girls came and i was at the computer and looked up and lauren was standing by the door looking at me with this excited excited grin on her face and then she came running to me and hugged me. and my day got a million times better. she followed me around and helped me out and talked to me a bunch. my god, that girl is adorable. skylar helped a bit too. megan showed me her mad baton skillz. lauren is in love with my hair. she said i was cute when i tied it up in a knot. i also put on a headband with a bow, just to be silly, and she and skylar really liked it and were like "you look cute!". having a 4-year-old and a 6-year-old call me cute was awesome. especially when theyre so cute themselves.
then closing time came, and we all got really sad. its been a really great summer and i'm so glad i got to work with james and kim and the other people i've met at the store. it's been a wonderful experience. kim hugged me, megan hugged me, skylar ran away from me (hehe), and lauren hugged me about 5 times. and the whole family stood outside the store for a few minutes and talked to me before i left. i was so sad to have to go. i love them so much. but i listened to brahms 2 on the way back and somehow everything, all the traffic lights and whatnot, seemed to fall into line just right.
so it was a sad day, but for some reason i am left feeling happy. or maybe happy isnt the right word. but that kind of feeling where your heart feels full and...well yes, actually happy just might be the right word after all.
work was pretty slow, especially at first, and i was very tired. at 5, kim surprised me by getting her babysitter to bring the girls by the store to say bye to me. apparently lauren, the 4-year-old who i am in love with, has been asking about me in conversations that go something like:
lauren: where is miss-shana? (because she thinks thats my name, since she calls adults miss and then their names)
kim: she's leaving for school soon.
lauren: where is she going?
kim: far far away.
lauren: doesn't she like working at the store anymore?
kim: yes, but she has to go to school.
lauren: do i get to see her?
kim: not for a long time, till christmas or something.
lauren: does she have to go to school?
james: see, my question exactly!
anyway, the girls came and i was at the computer and looked up and lauren was standing by the door looking at me with this excited excited grin on her face and then she came running to me and hugged me. and my day got a million times better. she followed me around and helped me out and talked to me a bunch. my god, that girl is adorable. skylar helped a bit too. megan showed me her mad baton skillz. lauren is in love with my hair. she said i was cute when i tied it up in a knot. i also put on a headband with a bow, just to be silly, and she and skylar really liked it and were like "you look cute!". having a 4-year-old and a 6-year-old call me cute was awesome. especially when theyre so cute themselves.
then closing time came, and we all got really sad. its been a really great summer and i'm so glad i got to work with james and kim and the other people i've met at the store. it's been a wonderful experience. kim hugged me, megan hugged me, skylar ran away from me (hehe), and lauren hugged me about 5 times. and the whole family stood outside the store for a few minutes and talked to me before i left. i was so sad to have to go. i love them so much. but i listened to brahms 2 on the way back and somehow everything, all the traffic lights and whatnot, seemed to fall into line just right.
so it was a sad day, but for some reason i am left feeling happy. or maybe happy isnt the right word. but that kind of feeling where your heart feels full and...well yes, actually happy just might be the right word after all.