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this one won't be so long (haha lucky you!) because i have to get ready to go to work... but i do need to write a bit.
i really dread going back to school tonight. don't get me wrong, i love all of my friends and hanging out with them and rooming with nikki and going out to eat late at night-- pretty much everything that comes with living on campus. but i really hate going to school. and that's no good! i'm not glorifying god in going to school and hating every second of it. classes suck and i never want to do any work for them.... pretty much all of my teachers are lame-- that sounds so childish haha, but i mean, i want to go and enjoy class and look forward to it. i just don't want to be there. i'm not interested. my mom said that when she was my age, she did the same thing. she just did NOT want to go to school, but didn't want to dissapoint her parents, so she stayed... and failed out. she said that she sees the same disinterest in me, and doesn't want the samet thing to happen to me as it did to her. i don't want to fail... and i don't want to hurt my gpa because it's really good right now and needs to stay that way. eventually i want to get a degree from somewhere for something. i know that acc won't provide me with that. it's not the place for me. even my dad mentioned that to me earlier today.... i am just worn out from being there, and it's only been what, like 3 weeks? i really just want to drop out now. i'm seriously considering it. dropping all of my classes, moving back home, working more hours, enjoying life. because i'm not at school. i don't know... just some random thoughts going through my head.
anyways, people-- head on over to my community pre_fans and join and buy a c.d. it's only 2 dollars. that includes shipping and handling... what a steal!!!
i really dread going back to school tonight. don't get me wrong, i love all of my friends and hanging out with them and rooming with nikki and going out to eat late at night-- pretty much everything that comes with living on campus. but i really hate going to school. and that's no good! i'm not glorifying god in going to school and hating every second of it. classes suck and i never want to do any work for them.... pretty much all of my teachers are lame-- that sounds so childish haha, but i mean, i want to go and enjoy class and look forward to it. i just don't want to be there. i'm not interested. my mom said that when she was my age, she did the same thing. she just did NOT want to go to school, but didn't want to dissapoint her parents, so she stayed... and failed out. she said that she sees the same disinterest in me, and doesn't want the samet thing to happen to me as it did to her. i don't want to fail... and i don't want to hurt my gpa because it's really good right now and needs to stay that way. eventually i want to get a degree from somewhere for something. i know that acc won't provide me with that. it's not the place for me. even my dad mentioned that to me earlier today.... i am just worn out from being there, and it's only been what, like 3 weeks? i really just want to drop out now. i'm seriously considering it. dropping all of my classes, moving back home, working more hours, enjoying life. because i'm not at school. i don't know... just some random thoughts going through my head.
anyways, people-- head on over to my community pre_fans and join and buy a c.d. it's only 2 dollars. that includes shipping and handling... what a steal!!!