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If Only I Died Just Once In My Life
Yeah... yer makin it happen! Thanks to everyone who sticks by me... i still feel fucking shitty but i'm dealing with it i guess.
I woke up late-- 7:25 and was like... wtf? cuz i didn't sleep shit-- as i went to bed at 5! (Mariah kept me up! F*ckin slut bag!) so i was EX-HAU-STED! I took down my hair last night so i had to SLAP that bitch up this morning! I'm gonna write a book! Sharkfin in 5 minutes! So dumb... so i had to walk my ass in the freezing.. no... FUCKING freezing cold to school... yay!
today sucked as always I was on the verge of tears again like... ALL day, about every little stupid thing. Keith was talking about mopving away and how Adam is his only friend and he was like
"Jerry, you know if i didn't have english with you i would never have any affiliation with you... i NEVER get to see you."
and i told him "why don't you call me? i fucking sit at home all day and eat and get fatter and moap about."
and he goes "all i do is work and go to school. i'm just in this cycle of nothingness right now and i can't worry about anything else."
and i'm like "if that makes you happy"
and we got into this semi-deep conversation and he was talkin about how he's movin to Florida and not gonna have a family and he's gonna grow older and be alone and he goes...
"but i'm fine with that. that's how i am and that's what i'm gonna do."
and of course i was like
"don't say that you know how i get."
and i felt so bad because-- i know we've had our problems and the whole situation with Carrie [hey grrl!] but i'm very forgiving and i can't let go of people-- i've pushed him away so much and i relaized it at that moment. So i started crying and ran off. ha! solves everything!
Yeah I'm going ot the mall tonight *mall rat*! I'd SO like to have Anthony come... MMmmmm. :( I miss him so fucking much! Haven't seen him in ONE day! >withdrawl!< ahhhh! Maybe Bath and Bodyworks is still having their sale... naaaaaahhhh! I gotta see if there's any birthday's comin up!
Insult of the Year(directed toward me): "fuckin gay queer-ass-bitch mother fucker!"
goodtimes...
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Yeah... yer makin it happen! Thanks to everyone who sticks by me... i still feel fucking shitty but i'm dealing with it i guess.
I woke up late-- 7:25 and was like... wtf? cuz i didn't sleep shit-- as i went to bed at 5! (Mariah kept me up! F*ckin slut bag!) so i was EX-HAU-STED! I took down my hair last night so i had to SLAP that bitch up this morning! I'm gonna write a book! Sharkfin in 5 minutes! So dumb... so i had to walk my ass in the freezing.. no... FUCKING freezing cold to school... yay!
today sucked as always I was on the verge of tears again like... ALL day, about every little stupid thing. Keith was talking about mopving away and how Adam is his only friend and he was like
"Jerry, you know if i didn't have english with you i would never have any affiliation with you... i NEVER get to see you."
and i told him "why don't you call me? i fucking sit at home all day and eat and get fatter and moap about."
and he goes "all i do is work and go to school. i'm just in this cycle of nothingness right now and i can't worry about anything else."
and i'm like "if that makes you happy"
and we got into this semi-deep conversation and he was talkin about how he's movin to Florida and not gonna have a family and he's gonna grow older and be alone and he goes...
"but i'm fine with that. that's how i am and that's what i'm gonna do."
and of course i was like
"don't say that you know how i get."
and i felt so bad because-- i know we've had our problems and the whole situation with Carrie [hey grrl!] but i'm very forgiving and i can't let go of people-- i've pushed him away so much and i relaized it at that moment. So i started crying and ran off. ha! solves everything!
Yeah I'm going ot the mall tonight *mall rat*! I'd SO like to have Anthony come... MMmmmm. :( I miss him so fucking much! Haven't seen him in ONE day! >withdrawl!< ahhhh! Maybe Bath and Bodyworks is still having their sale... naaaaaahhhh! I gotta see if there's any birthday's comin up!
Insult of the Year(directed toward me): "fuckin gay queer-ass-bitch mother fucker!"
goodtimes...
*@@<3~