Mar 04, 2004 17:40
hmmmmmm i feel so cold, not just on the outside, but on the inside.... i hate this cold. i just don't understand. i think i think i need some help i went ot the counselor and filled ou a form but the cunt never called me down. i don't know what i'm going to say but maybe it'd help me whatever i guess.
i've stooped so low how dumb can someone get? "oh pleeeease heeeeeeelp meeeeee i'm so desolate and frail!" fuck that shit. i feel i donno. no i do know. everyone's leaving me. in one form or another everyone is leaving me. i don't deserve this. after all i've done and after everything i've been through i do NOT deserve to lose everyone.
Oh, well i'm ALWAYS SO DEPRESSED, or i'm NOT IN A GOOD MOOD or I ACT LIKE I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE... hmmmmmmmmmmmm have you ever once considered that this is when i need you most??? hmmmmmmm i know... i ask SO MUCH of all my friends, i really do. I call and ask people to come visit me SO MUCH and i ask peopel to go out of their way to for once spend time with me ONE hour.
Thanks guys i REALLY appreciate it, no thank you very much it makes me day... no it makes my life complete to know that the reason i'm left just sitting here is because i gave everything i ever had and got so little in return, thanks. but DIDN'T YOU KNOW, this is what i deserve... i DESERVE THIS. There's your daily dose of self pity with a side of bitch. hope you enjoyed it.