[ahem]
longest week and a half ever.i hate having secrets.cause it bumms me out.well except if you have little ones between two different people and thats it.any ways thats not my point.i havent really seen the outside world in a coupple days and i cant decide if thats good or bad.im really sick of being sick im talking 3 different mideicines that keep giving me killer headaces so i have to take another pill [advil] to make the pain go away from another pill fuck it.my realtionship is totally fucked off right now and i feel really unimportant.im kinda missing regular school even though i only go to school once a week and sometimes i dont even do that.i miss people.and a social life which i dont even have now my mother was able to smash that and make me realize my age again.go mom! fuck.my rules consist home by ten on the weekdays two on weekends and i cant stay the night anywhere unless i notify her twenty four hours ahead of time how lame is that.i miss living with my grandmother and in a coupple of months my normal life will be back and i can go on living in my own little happy world of friends food and valataion of people other then my boyfriend and laurissa.=].not that i need it just that i miss old friends and i want new ones too i want to meet new exciting people who will come to my house and chill with out complaing about my own rules that suck once again.ugh im sick of it all like really sick of it all.im sick of being sick im sick of not feeling okay emotionally im sick of not having money im sick of myself im sick of my rules and im sick of everyone else.i was looking through all my pictures and stuff the other day thhere was black and white ones,ploariods,and one photobooth one[ahem](sense bitterness of another thing that i managed to fuck up)and i fucking miss my old life.i miss laurissa i miss waking up next to my boyfriend i miss fUCKING eVERYTHING OKAY HELP ME.im gonna end up in a mental facility beacuse this house if fucking driving me in_sane FUCK.