There's nothin left 2 say.. I haven't talked in days..& I'm not sure what I sound like anymore

[kissofbliss101]

Ok so I'm fucking my life up. I know this. Do I want it like this? No. Then why do I do it? Please tell me, b/c I have no fucking clue. I'm not dumb I know not going to school is only hurting me and my future. I plan on going to school every night before I go to bed, but come morning I just don't get up. "It's your choice, if you wanted it bad enough you'd do it, it's your responsiblity, blah blah blah" Yes I've heard this thousands of times. I'm not denying that it's my responsibility in anyway, and I know it's ultimatley my choice.. but if I want to go to school, and I want to get good grades, and I know it'll only do me good, and I have no problem with school then why the HELL would I be choosing not to go? I'm choosing TO go but it just... doesn't happen. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, obviously something. I know it doesn't make sense for me to say that I'm choosing to do it but then I don't but that's what is happening. I don't know... I don't fucking know anything anymore.
FUCK THIS.
Well at least we all know that if you need anyone to fuck something up, I'm your girl!...
It seems like there's not enough hours in the day either... seriously it just seems like the day starts, and then it's done before I do anything. It's so fucking frustrating..
Actually everythings so fucking frustrating. I'm just one big ball of stress right now.

I
think
I'm
going
to
explode.

xSincerlyxYours