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so ppl say never regret the things you've done.. because at one point its what you wanted.. i can honestly say thats not true.. cuz i have regrets... ALOT of them.. and because of it i mite not get back one of the most important things to me... you kno who you are.. and it seriously kills me.. and i kno everythings killing you.. and you kno i wanna be the person to you that i used to.. the one who when you needed help or juss to hang out called on me.. lifes to short.. n i realized that id be willing to spend the rest of it trying to make things right again.. u've been one of the few i juss KNO that i can count on most.. and seriously living without you being sucha main part of my life hurts.. and it makes me think about alot of things.. like i kno i messed up.. but having you in my life is important to me and so is our relationship and i feel that we had such an amazing one id hate to lose it over something stupid that i yet again manage to do... and you ask me what i've had to think about.. your one of them.. and i can honestly say i've even been jealous of certain things in a sense.. and i kno i cant take back what i did n how i made you feel and trust me if there was ANY way in the world i possibly could do to.. i would.. i miss you, care bout you, need you, and everything else you've ever done for me or helped me get through.. n i hope sometime soon you can realize you feel the same and can come to trust.. that id honestly never hurt you again.. id be the one healing it.. *sweetdreams*