why do i have this sense of unability?
i was at kens old apartment mary was there and upset. she told me was tryng for a baby with this guy. i said alright said its big step but im behind her. she hugged and kissed me and i couldnt help feelin bit a put out.
i started to walk home when i saw her following me i said cmon ill walk you home. she said no, and i looked and her baby's daddy was in the parking lot with his crew, she was holding ketchup and it looked like she was gonna stay wih them and have a cookout. i recognized the guys, they went to my school. i saw lucky there and waved - kept walking.
as i crossed the street to my apartment my neighbor rolled by in his truck, he was an ingenuitive fuck as his reverse didnt work so he rigged a wheel chair to it and would roll it back while in neutral, his autistic son in the bed of his truck wating paitently for his dad to tell him to come out. just as i waved i lookd behind me. a black dude in dreads-geovanni and this bigger dude, white probably half arabic followd and broke into a dead run at me. they were from the crowd i left mary with, now chasing me? i dont give fuck man i booked to my door, as i rounded the steps i looked down the stairs to see the black fuck comin up after me. i threw the half full beer can in my hand at him and it hit just right where it struck him in the face and he fell tripping the guy behind him.
desperation worked its fingers into my brain as a raced to unstick my cheychain in my backpocket and tried to the get that huge fuckin key into the deadbolt before he got there and its too big i thougut as it made that zipping noise going in. but it was too late the man was besides me and he had large arms. i swung and hit him in the face but it was no good. i fell back and ran down the hall and down the stairs. the man was shouting after me how well evolved he was- guessing how me,,, his prey was weaker and where i would go. he said it was only his evolution that would ensure his kill today.
i jumped into that lake as i heard him guess it. i dove down deep, i hated this lake i thought. its gross and i never know whats in it. i saw through the surface him staring down at me when i wondered why i was running to such extents. i surfaced and walked out of the lake,ready to fight. i see the man standing there i stuck my hand out and made my signature hand sign -- a peace sign-- he face was cold and he began to pace. his counter part standing besides him and the white guy holding this big chopping style buthcer knife throws it at me tommahawk style. i duck and swat it down. i picked it up and made at him but he just stood there waiting for me to get closer.
i was wet but in a cold sweat, i couod smell urine, i was seeing red, in survival instinct mode. the man was stone o i ducked to my right and swung the blade and the dopey lookin friend of his hitting him low across the shins. he was useless. i went for the man who seemed as though he care little. he looked hungry. he was after my blodd i knew it. i couldent figure out why. he just stood there waiting for me to submit so he could feast on my flesh. he seemed the dominant species. i would never bow or submit. i am not lesser, i am me.
suddenly he began to yell for the managers of the complex! breathing heavily holding a butcher knife after just rendering a mans leges useless i felt a little out of place. i began again to panick now from the police, how was i to explain this? i looked at the neighbors who were now staring and then at the man turned bloodlust to crying for haphazardly for the police. i chucked the knife out in the lake and ran for my apartment if they wanted me id be in my room. and booked it the hell outta there now a ways away from apartment 202 after the original chase.
huffing and puffig i made it into my apartment. i locked the front door and was locking the back door as i heard somone trying to get in the front. i held the lock so he couldnt pick it. i reached for the phone and dialed 911 and the out side fidegeting stopped. silence for a sec as i collected my thoughts and got my blade, went tp speak into the phone when he drove a car though my front window!. i ducked below the penetrated apartment rubble, below the front end of the wrecked car. i saw him crouched on the hood of the car through the smoke and the dust with tw knives in his hands, but i didnt think too hard about it for i had my knife in my own. usingthe element of surprise i lunged at him and stuck the blade in his chest and then went to holdiing his fists as he tried to stick me. the life slipped away and he congradulated me for giving such a fight. that i was brilliant and gutsy for that last lunge. i the weeker, less evoultionary developed, had won the fight fair, the police arrived i woke up
i had fallen asleep watching a dinosaur documentary on the science channel.
i started to walk home when i saw her following me i said cmon ill walk you home. she said no, and i looked and her baby's daddy was in the parking lot with his crew, she was holding ketchup and it looked like she was gonna stay wih them and have a cookout. i recognized the guys, they went to my school. i saw lucky there and waved - kept walking.
as i crossed the street to my apartment my neighbor rolled by in his truck, he was an ingenuitive fuck as his reverse didnt work so he rigged a wheel chair to it and would roll it back while in neutral, his autistic son in the bed of his truck wating paitently for his dad to tell him to come out. just as i waved i lookd behind me. a black dude in dreads-geovanni and this bigger dude, white probably half arabic followd and broke into a dead run at me. they were from the crowd i left mary with, now chasing me? i dont give fuck man i booked to my door, as i rounded the steps i looked down the stairs to see the black fuck comin up after me. i threw the half full beer can in my hand at him and it hit just right where it struck him in the face and he fell tripping the guy behind him.
desperation worked its fingers into my brain as a raced to unstick my cheychain in my backpocket and tried to the get that huge fuckin key into the deadbolt before he got there and its too big i thougut as it made that zipping noise going in. but it was too late the man was besides me and he had large arms. i swung and hit him in the face but it was no good. i fell back and ran down the hall and down the stairs. the man was shouting after me how well evolved he was- guessing how me,,, his prey was weaker and where i would go. he said it was only his evolution that would ensure his kill today.
i jumped into that lake as i heard him guess it. i dove down deep, i hated this lake i thought. its gross and i never know whats in it. i saw through the surface him staring down at me when i wondered why i was running to such extents. i surfaced and walked out of the lake,ready to fight. i see the man standing there i stuck my hand out and made my signature hand sign -- a peace sign-- he face was cold and he began to pace. his counter part standing besides him and the white guy holding this big chopping style buthcer knife throws it at me tommahawk style. i duck and swat it down. i picked it up and made at him but he just stood there waiting for me to get closer.
i was wet but in a cold sweat, i couod smell urine, i was seeing red, in survival instinct mode. the man was stone o i ducked to my right and swung the blade and the dopey lookin friend of his hitting him low across the shins. he was useless. i went for the man who seemed as though he care little. he looked hungry. he was after my blodd i knew it. i couldent figure out why. he just stood there waiting for me to submit so he could feast on my flesh. he seemed the dominant species. i would never bow or submit. i am not lesser, i am me.
suddenly he began to yell for the managers of the complex! breathing heavily holding a butcher knife after just rendering a mans leges useless i felt a little out of place. i began again to panick now from the police, how was i to explain this? i looked at the neighbors who were now staring and then at the man turned bloodlust to crying for haphazardly for the police. i chucked the knife out in the lake and ran for my apartment if they wanted me id be in my room. and booked it the hell outta there now a ways away from apartment 202 after the original chase.
huffing and puffig i made it into my apartment. i locked the front door and was locking the back door as i heard somone trying to get in the front. i held the lock so he couldnt pick it. i reached for the phone and dialed 911 and the out side fidegeting stopped. silence for a sec as i collected my thoughts and got my blade, went tp speak into the phone when he drove a car though my front window!. i ducked below the penetrated apartment rubble, below the front end of the wrecked car. i saw him crouched on the hood of the car through the smoke and the dust with tw knives in his hands, but i didnt think too hard about it for i had my knife in my own. usingthe element of surprise i lunged at him and stuck the blade in his chest and then went to holdiing his fists as he tried to stick me. the life slipped away and he congradulated me for giving such a fight. that i was brilliant and gutsy for that last lunge. i the weeker, less evoultionary developed, had won the fight fair, the police arrived i woke up
i had fallen asleep watching a dinosaur documentary on the science channel.