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i've just been thinking about this whole moving case my family is trying to get into...
it's really starting to depress me :X
i guess i don't really want to move unless it's out of town..
it'll be the 3rd time moving to a different part of Tucson, it's a pain in the ass, & we're in a good spot right now that's close to everything.. i don't know what's wrong with it.
before we talked about moving to a house with a big yard & i could considerably start somethin i've been wanting for a long time. But i guess my mom changed her mind that she wanted to keep it as small house / small yard in a culdesac in a big neighborhood.. i guess the only perk is that the neighborhood is a bit safer than the one we're in now.
i'd really prefure if we were moving then to get out of here though i guess :| Maybe to a state that's viable to actually do something in summer days outside & has nice weather changes..
it's not like i really have much here anyway. i have friends that i'm fine with being my loud & annoying self by, but i don't find myself wanting to be around people much. i guess i'm tired of living 3 different lives & hiding each one from others. i still find myself alone at school, as predicted. the closest i have to a friend is that kid in my journalism class, but i can hardly stand him because his IQ level hasn't exactly reached triple digits yet. No one at work seems to interest me. There's Jon who still hasn't put me on avoid, but there's still flay there. Or that new kid Alisha who i find pretty nice actually. he wasn't deterred when i called his name pretty, lol.
& it looks like i'm going to be going on the vacation this weekend with just my brother & his friends... none of mine have really gotten back to me or said anything about it. but i guess it'll just be an escape with a bunch of people i don't know or care about & maybe some time to refresh my mind for a bit.
kinda like why i realized it didn't matter if i went back to Sahuaro on Wednesdays to hang out with old friends; no one has really said anything about it. No one has said "Hey, you coming to hang out this week?" or "we should do somethin on wednesday!" Or even really talked to me after. so i stopped bothering.
i guess i'm tired of old friends pretending i don't exist & what we had back then wasn't much. i guess i didn't leave much; & i was told >>I<< was the one who pretended to care?? it's probably best left behind me then. Whelp.. time to take this all to my mom & hope for the best.
it's really starting to depress me :X
i guess i don't really want to move unless it's out of town..
it'll be the 3rd time moving to a different part of Tucson, it's a pain in the ass, & we're in a good spot right now that's close to everything.. i don't know what's wrong with it.
before we talked about moving to a house with a big yard & i could considerably start somethin i've been wanting for a long time. But i guess my mom changed her mind that she wanted to keep it as small house / small yard in a culdesac in a big neighborhood.. i guess the only perk is that the neighborhood is a bit safer than the one we're in now.
i'd really prefure if we were moving then to get out of here though i guess :| Maybe to a state that's viable to actually do something in summer days outside & has nice weather changes..
it's not like i really have much here anyway. i have friends that i'm fine with being my loud & annoying self by, but i don't find myself wanting to be around people much. i guess i'm tired of living 3 different lives & hiding each one from others. i still find myself alone at school, as predicted. the closest i have to a friend is that kid in my journalism class, but i can hardly stand him because his IQ level hasn't exactly reached triple digits yet. No one at work seems to interest me. There's Jon who still hasn't put me on avoid, but there's still flay there. Or that new kid Alisha who i find pretty nice actually. he wasn't deterred when i called his name pretty, lol.
& it looks like i'm going to be going on the vacation this weekend with just my brother & his friends... none of mine have really gotten back to me or said anything about it. but i guess it'll just be an escape with a bunch of people i don't know or care about & maybe some time to refresh my mind for a bit.
kinda like why i realized it didn't matter if i went back to Sahuaro on Wednesdays to hang out with old friends; no one has really said anything about it. No one has said "Hey, you coming to hang out this week?" or "we should do somethin on wednesday!" Or even really talked to me after. so i stopped bothering.
i guess i'm tired of old friends pretending i don't exist & what we had back then wasn't much. i guess i didn't leave much; & i was told >>I<< was the one who pretended to care?? it's probably best left behind me then. Whelp.. time to take this all to my mom & hope for the best.