wow the snow is crazy!!
lol bet everyone is gunna talk bout it. its sooo thick here and still going. yesterday i had those ferrero rocher as i said, then nothing, then a cuppa soup, a few small oven roast potatos (i was huuuuungry, and id already had to boil water in the saucepan coz some twat has nicked the lead to the kettle, and couldnt be arsed to make more soup/hot choc).
cant be arsed to go to my lecture today. its so cold n horrible, n its the worlds most boring lecutre n my friend isnt going so il have no one to talk to, frankly i cant be arsed. gunna be so bored all day, nothing to do at all. apart from a little bit of homework i should have done ages ago anyay. im a bit hungry. i just keep thinking soddit shall i go to asda and buy something nice to eat, thats what being bored n needing comfort does. mum is back with her ex, pretty much all my friends are with people, im just ugly fat and alone, i may aswell just carry on eating, at least pizza n ice cream doesnt care if im fat!! lol. i know, i know, not the attitude. but my beautiful barman doesnt want me, i know he wont, its fine. i dreamt about the 17 year old last night, was v obscure. god i fuckin fancy him. but hes almost like a celebrity,(that sounds so sad!!!) i had a moment with him then hes just disappeared n people occasionally spot a glimpse of him sort of thing!! ha im getting way too hung up on men and relationships. im not that desperate though, cos iv had one or two guys interested in me and iv said no (but lets be honest they were pretty monsterish). just dont think im ever going to find someone who feels the same way bout me i do bout them. either i have a huuuge crush and they dont like me at all, or i havent even noticed them n theyre in love with me or something.....hmmmmm.
not eaten yet today. really want to keep it that way but i dont know if its gunna happen. we shall see. i know i know, i should be trying to stop being a whale but i just feel really de-motivated
cant be arsed to go to my lecture today. its so cold n horrible, n its the worlds most boring lecutre n my friend isnt going so il have no one to talk to, frankly i cant be arsed. gunna be so bored all day, nothing to do at all. apart from a little bit of homework i should have done ages ago anyay. im a bit hungry. i just keep thinking soddit shall i go to asda and buy something nice to eat, thats what being bored n needing comfort does. mum is back with her ex, pretty much all my friends are with people, im just ugly fat and alone, i may aswell just carry on eating, at least pizza n ice cream doesnt care if im fat!! lol. i know, i know, not the attitude. but my beautiful barman doesnt want me, i know he wont, its fine. i dreamt about the 17 year old last night, was v obscure. god i fuckin fancy him. but hes almost like a celebrity,(that sounds so sad!!!) i had a moment with him then hes just disappeared n people occasionally spot a glimpse of him sort of thing!! ha im getting way too hung up on men and relationships. im not that desperate though, cos iv had one or two guys interested in me and iv said no (but lets be honest they were pretty monsterish). just dont think im ever going to find someone who feels the same way bout me i do bout them. either i have a huuuge crush and they dont like me at all, or i havent even noticed them n theyre in love with me or something.....hmmmmm.
not eaten yet today. really want to keep it that way but i dont know if its gunna happen. we shall see. i know i know, i should be trying to stop being a whale but i just feel really de-motivated