i should really be sleeping.
i can't stop thinking about ej.
it's driving me nuts.
and driving me to tears, quite often lately.
my heart is very heavy. god i loved him.
i went through a ton of old posts searching for one in particular that i cannot find... it was one of those private ones where only he and i could see it. i have no idea when i wrote it - it was about memories of us. its actually his only posted "memory" on lj.
if anyone knows how i can search through my own posts by way of who was able to read them... please let me know. i will be very much appreciative.
oddly enough, i found plenty of posts where i was apparantly very pissed off at a certain someone *cough*kiriq*cough*.
HAHAHAHA. i'm glad our relationship has more than improved since those days, dear friend. looking back was pretty hilarious though, i'll have to admit. i was amused.
it's driving me nuts.
and driving me to tears, quite often lately.
my heart is very heavy. god i loved him.
i went through a ton of old posts searching for one in particular that i cannot find... it was one of those private ones where only he and i could see it. i have no idea when i wrote it - it was about memories of us. its actually his only posted "memory" on lj.
if anyone knows how i can search through my own posts by way of who was able to read them... please let me know. i will be very much appreciative.
oddly enough, i found plenty of posts where i was apparantly very pissed off at a certain someone *cough*kiriq*cough*.
HAHAHAHA. i'm glad our relationship has more than improved since those days, dear friend. looking back was pretty hilarious though, i'll have to admit. i was amused.