looking on the bright side

Sep 02, 2006 21:28

so last night i got caught shoplifting.
i am an idiot, i know.

i guess im kind of thankful though.
im not really glad, buti guess it took that much to make me realize how stupid it is to do.

and with my new restriction.
[three months]
i can use it towards not wasting my money on things like gas, food, etc.
and maybe actually purchasing things.. hah..

but three months, and i have to only go shopping with my mom.
im done december first.
im thinking she'll mellow down after court is done.
where i can hopefully get off with an infraction.
ive never really been one to educate myself legally, but im researching.

i think this happening was also kind of like the end [i hope] of this whole down streak that has been going on in my life lately.
im trying to look on the bright side in all aspects, but i still think about everything thats going on and get really down again.
i dont know.

coming to terms with situations in my life as well lately.
ive developed many philosophies and realized many things.
good and bad, some im still unsure where to categorize.
people i miss, people who dont show any concern for my feelings, people who im glad to have met, etc.

in general, i think that its like the rainbow after the storm.
the long long storm that didnt seem it would end, until when you wouldnt expect it, the rainbow comes, the sun begins to shine, and things dont look so bad anymore.

then again, this is a somewhat rare optimistic rant for me.
:]
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