Spring.

[kissmestranger]

So I've been kind of cooped up in my own mind lately. Last week I went with a bunch of friends to The Outer Banks for three days and it was a beautiful experience. We stayed at this old motel right on the ocean, drove around to find the sand dunes and famous lighthouses, and just stayed lazy. I had Sonic about five times and it made me so happy, I wish there were some in New England!
By an by, school has been so treacherous. I am really distressed, I wish it was May so I could take my finals and step into the lazy days of summer. The days where I spend my afternoons at the pond with the boys and my evening going out and eating ice cream and laying in fields and counting the stars.

I've just been down on most things. I've been so filled with crippling doubt and unhappiness that I can't see how good things are, I am trying to change that but it is so hard with my mindset lately.

I want to be that girl. The girl with natural beauty, someone who glows in the sun and is peaceful when she's sleeping. I want someone who will tell me I'm her. A man that will be sweet and will cherish me. Somebody I can share my thoughts with and is true to himself.
I want to find you and at least make you smile, at best make you feel that warmth for the rest of your life with me.