Meh.
In two days I will be officially on Thanksgiving break. I don't believe it came so quickly and slowly at the same time. I can't wait to see Kevin, Kyle, Brooke, Michelle, Meredith, and everyone that left me. I want to have happiness surround me this winter, not leave me.
I cannot wait for winter to come. Sometimes I hate the cold, but I am hoping this winter to be really good. I love the snow here in Connecticut, especially when it causes snow days.
I remember about two years ago, I was standing outside of Living Proof with Ally, Rachel, Angela, and a bunch of others spinning around in the freshly fallen snow. It was like Edward Scissorhands snow. I remember catching the flakes on our tongues and trying to make snow angels. I remember driving with Brendan and Meredith for a good hour through the storm to get home. I remember falling asleep to Death Cab in the back of his car.
The holidays make me sad and happy. Mostly sad. It's probably from how my family is, I love them but there are somethings that make me want to exclude myself completely from them. Whenever my family gets together, I always feel so left out. Because I don't want to drink, because I am the youngest, because I have faith in God and actually practice it, because I actually go to college, because all my mother does is talk about me (in the worst of ways), because I get so sick of everything. I usually get physically ill to the point of pushing me back into my depressive state. I'm really hoping I can connect with my family for once and not be such an outsider.
I really want to move out.
I cannot wait for winter to come. Sometimes I hate the cold, but I am hoping this winter to be really good. I love the snow here in Connecticut, especially when it causes snow days.
I remember about two years ago, I was standing outside of Living Proof with Ally, Rachel, Angela, and a bunch of others spinning around in the freshly fallen snow. It was like Edward Scissorhands snow. I remember catching the flakes on our tongues and trying to make snow angels. I remember driving with Brendan and Meredith for a good hour through the storm to get home. I remember falling asleep to Death Cab in the back of his car.
The holidays make me sad and happy. Mostly sad. It's probably from how my family is, I love them but there are somethings that make me want to exclude myself completely from them. Whenever my family gets together, I always feel so left out. Because I don't want to drink, because I am the youngest, because I have faith in God and actually practice it, because I actually go to college, because all my mother does is talk about me (in the worst of ways), because I get so sick of everything. I usually get physically ill to the point of pushing me back into my depressive state. I'm really hoping I can connect with my family for once and not be such an outsider.
I really want to move out.