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[kissmeonce]

is it typical to no be able to stop
thinking about one's first love?
because it has been happening to me lately
random, awesome things will remind me of her
and i cant stop thinking of how happy i was with her
but then i cant stop thinking about
how we i totally screwed it up

i've been praying for paula ever since
i read about her injury
and i'm so glad to see that she is resting and healing
i just wish i were as motivated to do something
as noble and selfless as serving in the peace corps

something keeps telling me that i made
some terribly bad decisions(this i already know)
but at the same time, i feel like...
we should have ended up together
now, maybe its just my messed up mind talking
but this is what i've been thinking lately
(and no, its not because of valentine's day,
although i have been thinking and praying about
God and Love, and God is Love, and Love is real,
but i still have no idea what Love really is
except what i see in the Godly relationships around me,
and i still dont feel like i'm mature enough)
so i thought i'd post it so i could go back
and read it later...

nobody reads this anyway

so, i've been working hard at learning my lines
for the buddy holly play in april...
and its coming along, still very slowly
the songs are coming along great
but the lines are... ugh
tomorrow, i dont have anything scheduled
so i'm going to attempt to record the lines
without my part, so i can practice more efficiently

this wednesday or thursday we are supposed to
get sized for our costumes
and i think i may be getting the guitar as well!!

i'd just like to add that i am wicked excited
to go to texas next month
and then go to chicago with the family after that!

well... back to the grind
God, please help me to be fully concentrated
and always doing everything for your glory

peace out

-Kev0-