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[kissmejudas9]

yo so i don't even know what the hell is going on right now. I have no idea what thoughts are going through my head, but whatever they are all i do is ignore them. i do care. i really do. but its like..no matter how much i try..i just can't..want it anymore. i don't even know how to put it in words. it really does feel like i have nothing left to give. its just a shell there, theres nothing really inside anymore. no matter who i care about, who i have a crush on..
im not interested? is that how to put it? no not even.

this is why i ignore it all the time, because i have no idea what these feelings are, its like everything inside me is asleep. the only genuine feelings i have anymore are anger and annoyance. i can't tell if im really laughing or if i am because everyone else is

i might have found a car. its gorgeous. its a celica. only 6gs. but who knows with insurance.
im so tired. not emotionally. just mentally. im not confused.
i just..don't think anything anymore.
its kind of nice
its like abreak from everything that happened last year. but i know im jaded. nothing phases me anymore.
some lady blew up her baby.
"thats cool."
or say i had to lose everything all over agian
"werd. whatev."

those are like the only answers i have anymore. i feel asleep.