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jeeeeeez, i've got to go back to school and find something to do with my life. i don't want to continue this cycle forever, working a menial job for a few months, getting sick of it and living like a bum for a few months, resigning myself to returning to a menial job to continue surviving, ad infinitum. i hope in the end it turns out that i'm worth more than this. i guess i'm afraid that i could graduate college a huge failure who can't even build a career. i'm afraid i've spend so long being utterly worthless to myself and society that i'll never be able to turn a new leaf. but for the love of god, someday i will find a way to live happily and comfortably based on my own accomplishments.