.don't worry too much -- it only hurts when i breathe.
i am so confused. i don't understand why i'm not happy.
i feel happy when i'm smiling...but i know it's just an act. i'm not happy at all.
i am never content with my life. i waste so much time wishing for things that won't happen and wanting things i'll never get. i never understand anything either.
i really miss devan lately. probably because i feel like i don't have anybody...and no matter what devan would always be there.
jeff found this girl he likes. kay. she's 16. she used to live in texas. she likes horrible music. so why does he like her? because she used to live in texas [so she has an accent] and because her name is kay and that's different. he loves weird names. i'm not jealous...it just bothers me because today we were talking and he said she was at a "concert" last night. and i said probably good charlotte. he said yeah. and i laughed. and he said 'she doesn't like them. she likes mest' i'm like ohhh. so much better. and he's like whatever youdon't gotta make fun of her. what the fuck!?$#@ he makes fun of everything about every boy i know regardless of whether i like them or not.
i hate thinking about someone i know i should not think about.
i hate checking my buddy list every 5 minutes to see if they've gotten online.
i hate wondering if i will see them friday.
i just want to go to sleep. and stay that way for a few years.
i feel happy when i'm smiling...but i know it's just an act. i'm not happy at all.
i am never content with my life. i waste so much time wishing for things that won't happen and wanting things i'll never get. i never understand anything either.
i really miss devan lately. probably because i feel like i don't have anybody...and no matter what devan would always be there.
jeff found this girl he likes. kay. she's 16. she used to live in texas. she likes horrible music. so why does he like her? because she used to live in texas [so she has an accent] and because her name is kay and that's different. he loves weird names. i'm not jealous...it just bothers me because today we were talking and he said she was at a "concert" last night. and i said probably good charlotte. he said yeah. and i laughed. and he said 'she doesn't like them. she likes mest' i'm like ohhh. so much better. and he's like whatever youdon't gotta make fun of her. what the fuck!?$#@ he makes fun of everything about every boy i know regardless of whether i like them or not.
i hate thinking about someone i know i should not think about.
i hate checking my buddy list every 5 minutes to see if they've gotten online.
i hate wondering if i will see them friday.
i just want to go to sleep. and stay that way for a few years.