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So I did not go to skool today. Yeah, its probably a bad idea since Im in math and I need to pass it, and going back to school tomorrow may get me to struggle more in that class. But I needed it. Yesterday I had a total emotional break down. I woke up feeling pretty shitty. My left leg kept hurtting in the knee and it kept like feeling like it was out of its socket. So I looked like a idiot and was pretty much limping all day. Then I went to school. I was soooo tired so it was really hard to concentrait (Idkifthatshowyouspellitbutw.e) and stay awake. Then rebecca was not there so I was really lonely. And all I wanted to do was call my mom and tell her how I felt. But right when I took my phone out of my pocket, fucking Mr. Davis had to take my phone away for the day. So I was left sitting alone and crying, for the first time in school I sat and cried. Finally school was over, but as I was leaving Mr. B told me I did not do so well on my test, even with a calculator. But the class did not do too well on it either. But he wants me to be tutored by him two times aweek. NO!. I am not. I will do it once. So that conversation kinda depressed me. Then my mom got mad at me because since my mind was so cluttered, I did not notice her car. I mean I did but there is that other kid who has a black porsche and I thought my moms Carrea writing was in crome when hers is in black so I walked away. So she had to park to get me and then get back into the hectic carpool line. To make me feel better my mom took me to fred segals. It helped.
Then finally Yoga came. That really relaxed me. So much that I fell asleep in the class. After that I was supposed to see mike. That was the one thing that helped me get through the day. But he could not come. Because he had a meeting that was running late and wanted to see me more then a hour. That was it. I lost it. I startted crying and me and him got into somewhat of a fight. Pretty much it ended with me calling him a shmuck and hanging up on him.
But me and him made up. I called 10 mins later and apologized for calling him a shmuck and over-reacting. He said sorry too.
I talked to him later. We are still good, if not better. He promised he would come over today because he has "changed". I believe him.
That was the longest we had. It was two days in a row. Both times we apologized.
But now we are good. And thats all that matters. So im seeing him today at 12:00 noon, since im not in school today. I can't wait.
♥
Then finally Yoga came. That really relaxed me. So much that I fell asleep in the class. After that I was supposed to see mike. That was the one thing that helped me get through the day. But he could not come. Because he had a meeting that was running late and wanted to see me more then a hour. That was it. I lost it. I startted crying and me and him got into somewhat of a fight. Pretty much it ended with me calling him a shmuck and hanging up on him.
But me and him made up. I called 10 mins later and apologized for calling him a shmuck and over-reacting. He said sorry too.
I talked to him later. We are still good, if not better. He promised he would come over today because he has "changed". I believe him.
That was the longest we had. It was two days in a row. Both times we apologized.
But now we are good. And thats all that matters. So im seeing him today at 12:00 noon, since im not in school today. I can't wait.
♥