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Justin & I went to Dragon Con yesterday!! We had a LOT of fun! We took all of our coins to a coinstar machine & got $160 dollars to spend on what felt like a free event! We pretty much bought everything we wanted from the vendors & got our tickets with the 160 dollars. We even got to attend the art show at the end of it all - & while I was there, I realized that painting & art in general IS what I want to do.. I'm in love with it. Seeing all of these amazing artists' work was breathtaking.. I hope that I can also create something spectacular one day.. When the whole event was over, Justin took me to Hard Rock Cafe & we ate some of the best food I have ever had at a restaurant! So delicious! We admired the bar for it's wood and it's intricate ceiling and crown moldings. I really had a great time. He & I are great together at times. I hope to make that a usual thing.
I have been so emotional and touchy lately & it is from working so hard, not getting any sleep or having terrible nightmares, & being on this relationship roller coaster. I am going to fix these things. I am going to make a better life for myself without attempting to run away from my problems. My biggest goal is to start listening to my maturing mind. To slow down & listen to what the maturing part of me is telling me to do. I want to think more before I act. & I want to realize when to just let things go instead of arguing. I always do really well when trying to better myself. This will be challenging, but I know that I can succeed.
I love Justin Hewinson so much. It's a different kind of love than what I was used to with Brandon. Even when I broke up with Justin & thought that that was what I wanted, I felt so much loss.. It makes me think that if we could both just stick it out until we have matured just a bit more, we can be very happy together in the future. He is definitely a person that I value - I love the way he views the world & I believe he is a rare & special find. I want to keep him..
I have been so emotional and touchy lately & it is from working so hard, not getting any sleep or having terrible nightmares, & being on this relationship roller coaster. I am going to fix these things. I am going to make a better life for myself without attempting to run away from my problems. My biggest goal is to start listening to my maturing mind. To slow down & listen to what the maturing part of me is telling me to do. I want to think more before I act. & I want to realize when to just let things go instead of arguing. I always do really well when trying to better myself. This will be challenging, but I know that I can succeed.
I love Justin Hewinson so much. It's a different kind of love than what I was used to with Brandon. Even when I broke up with Justin & thought that that was what I wanted, I felt so much loss.. It makes me think that if we could both just stick it out until we have matured just a bit more, we can be very happy together in the future. He is definitely a person that I value - I love the way he views the world & I believe he is a rare & special find. I want to keep him..