Too much a flirt?
I'm absolutely loving my new hours at work. I actually have time to do stuff and see people. My house is the cleanest it's been in a long time, my groceries are fully stocked, and I did laundry. Next step is my car, which, if I'm lucky, will take me the lesser part of a week.
The tech support of third shift is shit. There is Kenol and I and poor Kenol got thrown on with no training and most of what we need fixed isn't in my job description (even though I can fix it, but they won't let me...) I'm really beginning to hate 19 board nights....
I think I do a bit too much of what most people consider flirting. I don't consider very much flirting. I have a mostly outgoing personality and I happen to be interested in mostly male-dominated subjects. Apparently this means that whenever I'm sitting around talking about video games or computers that I'm flirting. Really, I'm just that interested in things. I love all that action-like stuff. However, I'm hearing that people think I'm flirting or attracted to them because I can carry a conversation about Resident Evil. I will readily admit that most of my guy friends are drop dead sexy. They are all enticing in different ways. I am enough of myself, though, to not sleep with nor want to sleep with them. I'm a very good girl when it comes to sex and I do not believe in having it casually. If you do then more power to you. I just can't seem to without strong emotional attachment. Even if it just means making a long-time friend happy. I can still count my partners on one hand with fingers left over, so fuck off if you want to run around calling me a slut.
I may admit that I need to stop talking to boys. I seem to only get myself in trouble. I don't want to be in a relationship. I'm a teenager (19 to be precise) and I've already been engaged. I don't want to get married and I most definately don't want children. Hell, sometimes the thought of dating makes me nauseous. Basically what I'm trying to say is that I'm not trying to lead anyone on. At this exact moment I want nothing more than friendship from any of my guy friends. No, this isn't directed at anyone in particular, I promise. Just venting in a blog.
This thing is kind of like a diary to me so if you're getting upset by what you read it is my thoughts in total truth.
Luv and kisses
Z