a few things...
Saturday-was crazily fun! first day of S.club and it was just great...i cant wait till this weekend when everyone else is back from their retreat!!
i'll take michelle's pictures, once she posts them and post them on here too probabley!
^PS michelle made me DANGLE from the stinken ski lift! no more right sides for me MICHELLE! no more! hahahaha
my instructor is casey, hes pretty nice and is really helpful but i felt like an idiot b/c i've changed from goofy to regular and i had to learn everything regular now...and there was this little cocky kid thats like 10 and hes like "casey, i'm amazing. i can do anything on a snowboard. you dont need to teach me." and thats all he did all during the lesson...haha it was so funny yet annoying
so yeah, it was awesome...i love snowboarding i cant wait until i get better and get into the groove of it again! and i love ALL of the people in S.club. just because theres no fake, ridiculous idiots that cause drama etc etc. its like all the people in band...we just wanna have fun, and we dont need to know everyone extremely well just to hang out with them...idk everyones just nice to each other :-)
anyways sunday-went to a party
monday-gym was amazing. i love itttttt hahaha english-i still have like nothing done on my project and its due wednesday yet we've had a whole month to do it in class haha whoops:-P i'm so lazy in math today, the jamister gave me a lecture. and she made keith feel like an idiot. she was pretty rude today but on a happier note then music theory came and that was pretty fun Chris was singing songs the whole time...and then we all talked to mr. chalker about his tie the rest of class hahaha
thennn 5th block- guess what everyone: my nysmma solo is level 6 right? well guessss what i'm doin?!?! Flight of the Bumblebee!!!!!! i'm nervous yet so excited ALL at the same time! i'll get the notes and everything down, i mean its such a short piece and everything. its just the tempo i gotta get right. i'm gunna go for all-state to this year. now that i think i'm up for it and i know that music is what i'm going for in college.
3-5...finally went to the weight room since swimming's been over. for as little as i did today...it was great...just running off all my ANGER and frustration out. the things that have been making me PISSED OFF...really pissed off all friggen week. to the point where i didnt even care anymore. ugh it felt so nice. i almost wish that it wasnt winter anymore just so i could run on the track and on my trails. it was fun hanging out with christina and the weight room crew. but as chris knows i got really whiney about my shoulder. brandon tried to help me...lifting only 2.5 lbs kills it (yeah, pathetic i know). and it stinks b/c i cant bench, do squats or anything much anymore b/c of my shoulder. ohhh well i guess i gotta strengthen (sp?) a little at a time
well, i'm done.
sometimes, it just feels pointless. but then i realize its all worth it...it makes me the happiest. i dont know, i just am worried. i'm becoming paranoid. wondering if i should continue on...but then i just think: nothing else makes me more happy. nothing. everything that bothers me, goes away. everything just seems perfect, like it couldnt get any better than this. i dont know. i cant let them bother me. i cant let them tick me off every chance they get. and i have to stop letting them make me feel guilty about doing what i really think is right. because i know its what i want. they need to stop assuming. give me a chance. they need to stop contridicting themselves over and over again. i'm sick of it. sick of them thinking they can do this to me. maybe i'll just do what they say. i almost in a way, really would. its getting to a point where i really dont care. maybe i should. i wonder what they would do, wonder what they would say. oh wait. i already know what they say.