Sidewalks, running away from the streets we knew

[kissessosweet]

Holding on seems like forever, waiting here feels like an eternity, i want to run away, i want away from it all, im not depressed, my life is full of potential and I am more than excited about the future, but i hate being surrounded with depressed people... i dont want to be put down on their level, i want to be okay and I want to not have to worry about all the sad things in life.. i hate coming home because of it, everyone is sad because she messed up.. its no ones fault but her own....I just want out.. before I fall down again

I dont like being alone, it scares me, i hate the feeling that I have when I wake up every morning knowing that there is nothing to look forward to in the day, having to deal with the fact that I dont have anyone to look forward to seeing, and holding at the end of the day. I hate this feeling, and its so hard knowing that I have it but its 1400 miles away and trying to come to me... so all there is to do is wait

As I wait I do have a few people in my life to help cheer me up... Jess and the guys... I know we have problems..but they are awesome... and i dont know how I would make it without them... this process is going to be so hard, but i know with them it will be ten times easier...

i just really hate being alone... and i feel REALLY alone right now...