all gone
this past year i have made some bad choices, but one of the worst happened on February 26. i made a choice and in doing this i lost the best guy that i have ever had. i made a choice that i now wish i could take back, bc it hust someone that i cared about and still do. but bc of that choice we can never be together and its all my fault. i shouldnt be allowed to be with people bc i mess things up with people i care about. i wish i could change things but i cant, and now i have to live with the fact that i hurt someone special to me. no matter wat i say or do i cant fix things or make it better and go away. i dont want him to forgive me, bc i havent forgiven me yet. i just wanna be with him, so i can prove that, thats not who i am or wanna be. to that person, you knwo who u are, and i am so sorry that i hurt u and lost u.