Face down in the dirt, she said this doesn't hurt...
Haven't had a very good day. Week. Something.
I'm so sick of being taken advantage of. Boy in the previous entry? I guess that's it. Haven't heard from him in a couple days, haven't seen him in a week. No reason. Ouch. What else is new. This shouldn't be this complicated. I've been single for 9 months now. I hate it. I wish I would just be worth it for somebody. I don't want or need to be their first priority, I just need to be somewhere on the list prefferably somewhere away from the bottom.
I had a good cry today. It's been about a month since my last panic attack. Today was just one more. I need it all to be over. I want to rewind to simpler times or fast forward to when they make more sense. For the first time in a good while, I'm not enjoying the present. I hate it actually. I hate being alone and thinking. I'm falling in a hole and I hope there is something that will get me out. I can't take too many more disappointments.
♥Sasha
I'm so sick of being taken advantage of. Boy in the previous entry? I guess that's it. Haven't heard from him in a couple days, haven't seen him in a week. No reason. Ouch. What else is new. This shouldn't be this complicated. I've been single for 9 months now. I hate it. I wish I would just be worth it for somebody. I don't want or need to be their first priority, I just need to be somewhere on the list prefferably somewhere away from the bottom.
I had a good cry today. It's been about a month since my last panic attack. Today was just one more. I need it all to be over. I want to rewind to simpler times or fast forward to when they make more sense. For the first time in a good while, I'm not enjoying the present. I hate it actually. I hate being alone and thinking. I'm falling in a hole and I hope there is something that will get me out. I can't take too many more disappointments.
♥Sasha