(insert picture)-me;/pathetic;/thing
Tuesday 8:42pm March 1st face step step down
It's almost 9. I havent even started on all the home work I have to do yet. I have so much
I am drifting back into my depression. Last week was nice I wasnt really depressed at all last week. Now I am back in school with people, I shouldnt be depressed, should I?
I just want to scream and cry and make all the pain go awa. Yeah, I know I should be working on school, but i cannot concentrate! (I cried for you, when you told me to date all of the things that made you end up with me and Ill believe anythingI should be happy shouldnt I? I guess Im just a selfish brat like mom says...(I overheard that you were unhappy too) is this weird? do i scare you WHY! WHATS WRONG WITH ME! why do i somehow think writing this out on paper will make me feel better. It's a mask maybe becaise I have no one to express myself to that cares at all. I dont want complete sympathy, dont break down and goo at my sobbiness. "YOU POOR THING"
I better work on homework because I have anti-school tomorrow my darlings..
Shrivel shrivel, you little sick thing. I KNOW IM SICK.
Good eye sniper. I shoot you run.
10:21 same night
Gee tidalwaves and thunderblades.
Well after I wrote all this I went to my mummys room and for I dont know why...and freaked. I fell apart. My emotions took control I started bawling, soaking my fathers pillow with tears. I started telling my mom how I felt. I felt dumb when I realized she was talking on the phone but she hung up. SHE ACTUALLY COMFORTED ME. it helped a little. I didnt have her sometimes (if i didnt) I dont know what i would do.) People say im unrealistic about what i want to be. I don't know.
goodbye cruel world
It's almost 9. I havent even started on all the home work I have to do yet. I have so much
I am drifting back into my depression. Last week was nice I wasnt really depressed at all last week. Now I am back in school with people, I shouldnt be depressed, should I?
I just want to scream and cry and make all the pain go awa. Yeah, I know I should be working on school, but i cannot concentrate! (I cried for you, when you told me to date all of the things that made you end up with me and Ill believe anythingI should be happy shouldnt I? I guess Im just a selfish brat like mom says...(I overheard that you were unhappy too) is this weird? do i scare you WHY! WHATS WRONG WITH ME! why do i somehow think writing this out on paper will make me feel better. It's a mask maybe becaise I have no one to express myself to that cares at all. I dont want complete sympathy, dont break down and goo at my sobbiness. "YOU POOR THING"
I better work on homework because I have anti-school tomorrow my darlings..
Shrivel shrivel, you little sick thing. I KNOW IM SICK.
Good eye sniper. I shoot you run.
10:21 same night
Gee tidalwaves and thunderblades.
Well after I wrote all this I went to my mummys room and for I dont know why...and freaked. I fell apart. My emotions took control I started bawling, soaking my fathers pillow with tears. I started telling my mom how I felt. I felt dumb when I realized she was talking on the phone but she hung up. SHE ACTUALLY COMFORTED ME. it helped a little. I didnt have her sometimes (if i didnt) I dont know what i would do.) People say im unrealistic about what i want to be. I don't know.
goodbye cruel world