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Soooo....*happy update!*...I walked with everyone during graduation but never actually received my diploma because of an extension in one of my sociology classes. In addition to the extension, the professor decided that to be fair to everyone else who did not need an extension, she'd add more work to the mix and give me a 20 page paper in addition to the 10-page final. That's all well and good but it seems like when you can't pay your credit card bill so they charge you tons more...you obviously can't pay so they tell you to pay more...makes no sense.....I needed the extension so let's add more work! Anyway, now that my mini rant is done, I'm pleased to say that I did all that work. I busted my ass and sifted through over 600 pages of research material to come up with the 30 pages that she wanted. And if I may say so, my research papers were pretty good. She even told me that she was impressed! SO.... MY DIPLOMA CAME TODAY IN THE MAIL!!! Yippee!!! Now grad school is definitely on the list and not up in the air. Things are looking better already!! :) Now we can have a proper grad party (which everyone is invited to of course!). I'll keep you updated on the details!
In other news, I must say that I missed out on a lot in high school. Sometimes I wish I had been one of the guys in high school. Hopefully I'll get to become better friends with them this summer. I went over to Ahren and Ashley's last night because Nate is leaving on Saturday and this was his pre-going away party. (Ahren is a friend from high school and Ashley is his girlfriend...they are SO cute together!) We all had *really* cheap champagne (that I was the only one who enjoyed it) and watched the documentary on the joke The Aristocrats....has anyone else seen that?! It's so twisted and fucked up but completely hilarious at the same time! And Bob Saget, holy shit. I hated him in Full House. I never actually really watched that show when I was younger because he creeped me out. But he's fucking hilarious now!
And in other news (...like really corny news) the plants that I've planted have all come up! My mom is teaching me how to garden. I have a beautiful one outside! And I might teach her how to knit sometime in return. Although, I don't see that really happening because she can't even sew. I can't sew either (because she never taught me...) but I at least try. When I was younger and things needed to be sewn (like for dance classes), she'd use tape. And not even like, heavy duty tape....masking tape.....anyway, I'm rambling.
So, I'm not sure how I feel about all this sharing because I don't really think what I've written will be interesting to anyone, but I feel the need to really give it a try. I feel happier than I have in a while. Knowing, for good, that I will be going to grad school (unless scholarships are an issue but that's ok right now), that I'll have the chance to start over and be happy with myself for me gives me a very content feeling on most days. I'm not quite at the whole "don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" crap because as shitty as things were when they were bad, they were the best things of my life when they were good and that's hard to get over. But I'm trying....I still have regrets about trying to move on but it's the logical next step I guess.....I'll just focus on the other parts of my life right now. I'll build up my career and education and friends. Like Ahren said, I dodged a bullet: I found out all the shitty things early on. I tell myself that whenever I feel sad and lonely but I'm wondering when I'll actually believe it....part of me is scared to believe it and let go of that part of my life...to let Kristen go completely.... Ok, now I'm really rambling! Stopping now!
I miss my Mohos and could definitely use a road-trip soon. I also need some *happy* time with Annie, Rin and Emily. AND Resident Evil and Ghostbusters because whenever I think of Rin or see her, I want to watch those!
So, adios everyone! Thanks for bearing with my shit when I was sad! :) I love you all!