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Like secrets we keep from our boyfriends and share only with our girlfriends, we all have undisclosed feelings that we keep to ourselves. They have the potential to drive you mad, make you sad, keep you close, hold you far, make you happy, boil your rage. On good days, you re-discover yourself, you get over your emotional hurdles for the day, you're secure about your relationships with your friends, and you're content with just about everything else.
On bad days, you are a self-proclaimed and well hidden emotional wreck, you are envious and jealous of petty things, and you don't understand why some people are the way that they are. On these days, your only consolation are your friends who unknowingly and without hesitation keep you grounded, your boyfriend who sends you his telephone affection until he's satisfied that you'll last the rest of the night without him, and the self-assurance you have to give to yourself that everything will be okay despite the fact that sometimes, some relationships just don't stay strong forever. It's a harsh reality that is hard to accept, a brutal one that affects people more than they might know. So often, you blame the change catalyst that you let it affect you more than it should.
It's sad to accept that so much has changed, to see how others have influenced that transition, and to really acknowledge that things will never be the same again. We move on, we grow stronger, we stay close to the people that make you happy and transfer their goodness to you. So, thank you to those who keep me sane and truly appreciate the person that I am. Because as little as I may openly admit it, it's just one of those things that I need to really keep me going.
On bad days, you are a self-proclaimed and well hidden emotional wreck, you are envious and jealous of petty things, and you don't understand why some people are the way that they are. On these days, your only consolation are your friends who unknowingly and without hesitation keep you grounded, your boyfriend who sends you his telephone affection until he's satisfied that you'll last the rest of the night without him, and the self-assurance you have to give to yourself that everything will be okay despite the fact that sometimes, some relationships just don't stay strong forever. It's a harsh reality that is hard to accept, a brutal one that affects people more than they might know. So often, you blame the change catalyst that you let it affect you more than it should.
It's sad to accept that so much has changed, to see how others have influenced that transition, and to really acknowledge that things will never be the same again. We move on, we grow stronger, we stay close to the people that make you happy and transfer their goodness to you. So, thank you to those who keep me sane and truly appreciate the person that I am. Because as little as I may openly admit it, it's just one of those things that I need to really keep me going.