sweet sweet laziness
the last few days have been very relaxed and comfortable.... it seems like nothing could ever go wrong... everything with me and matt is perfect as usual... playful, yet serious at the same time. Its great being here, i think i've finally gotten over my little home sickness spell i was in and i feel alot better now. I mean i broke down the other night just sobbing and i just had a picture of my mom stuck in my mind.... it was horrible... the more i thought about it the harder i cried. It was the first time in years i've cried myself to sleep. I woke up in matts arms and everything was better. I relized that even though i miss my family, i wasnt happy in MA it took a show on MTV to prove that to me. IT was hard enough, but its like so much more fun to be on your own, a hell of alot more stress but it makes it worth it in the end.We're in the process of finding a place to live and i really need to get a job. But i'm not letting it bother me just yet. Everything is gonna be fine...well...at least thats what i keep telling myself. I relized that once niki gets here...then beth...everything will be alot easier. But i gotta get going i'm wanted by the athorities IE matt and Toast HAIL TOAST!!!!!