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as carla said, im in a serious place right now. i pretty much hate myself. for numerous reasons. im lazy, unmotivated and probably near failing my book making class. i feel fat and unattrative on my better days. i keep making myself feel like shit over and over and over again, but i cant stop. ill stop when i want to stop ill stop when i want to stop. my heart is taking some serious wear and tear because im holding onto many things that have all ready come to pass. im in the storm right now and i can see the clouds parting and some sun in the distance, but i feels like miles away. i know there will be big changes after this passes, but its such a bitch waiting around for it to roll over. graduation and the summer wont come fast enough.