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i dont love you. i know i dont. for some reason, i tell myself i do. deep down, i know i dont though. i dont even know if i really care about you even. perhaps i pretend i do to make sure im still alive with feelings. or maybe it's because you are the only one i think i could possibly love. one moment, however, i felt so glad and such a beautiful feeling when i thought about when our bodies formed as one. you have been inside me. deep deep inside. that really means nothing though, does it? in todays society..everyone has had meaningless sex. it meant something to me though. so perhaps, im pretending i dont love you..when i really do. so very confusing.